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Today was beautiful outside an of course i was inside all day either asleep or at work. I did manage to sneek out a couple times at work but it was not enough. Right now i am bored out of my freakin' mind. Josh is asleep right now, we worked totally opposite shifts this week, maybe i am going crazy but i feel so distance from him in the past couple of weeks. we don't really seem the same, i can't really explain it either, it's so much more then just one little problem. I am having problems sleeping again, i was doing so well for a while. I tried so hard last night but still go to bed around 4. Of Course i didn't get out of bed until 1, even though i was awake at 11 and just kept laying there. i feel like a huge blob of nothing. Every part of life seems so disconnected. I mean when was the last time i saw and actually hung out with my own sister. that hurts a lot. I finally got to hang out wiht nikki the other day but u didn't get enough of her good loving *wink*. I never have more than 10 seconds to talk to Jen . I got no boyfriend no sister no friends.... my mother is always gone. What the hell is this. I am very lonely. Please someone Hang out with Me before i go crazy!!!
All i do is work and watch tv. I can't sleep because all i think about is why am i complaining life is so much worse for others people in the world, and then i sit there and think about every fucking person in the world. It's a vicious cycle. If You don't want to hang out with me please hit me in the head with something hard so that i lose my memory or go into a coma!!!!!
All i do is work and watch tv. I can't sleep because all i think about is why am i complaining life is so much worse for others people in the world, and then i sit there and think about every fucking person in the world. It's a vicious cycle. If You don't want to hang out with me please hit me in the head with something hard so that i lose my memory or go into a coma!!!!!