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I think I am just overreacting. He said I have him to come home to.
I should just try to be alone. Being with him will cause a lot of problems. Especially with my family... because they know everything about him. Mom's fine with it, she knows I'll be safe about it... but holy shit, I can't even imagine what my dad would say.
My friends know everything about him, too. I'd hate to have them be on the edge of their seat the whole time. But he really does make me happy. I don't know why he does, but he does.
I don't know. I guess I'm just afraid of all the changes when I get back to arizona.
I don't do well with change. Though, me going to indiana was a change within itself.
I had talked to adam, maybe a week ago, about going to the doctor with me when I got home. He seem interested, but has not shown any further interest (aka, he still has not given me his schedule so I can make an appointment.. nor has he answered any of my phone calls). I was thinking of having jerod go with me. But now I see that I should probably just deal with this myself. Mom's really worried about me. I'll be fine, though.
Umm.
Jerod says he recommended me to a place that's hiring. It pays thirteen an hour, but I don't know whether that'd be full time or not. Jen says her place of business is looking for people, too... that's ten an hour and it would be full time. And my roommate paul informed me that guitar center needs a door person. Hopefully one of those works out! I love that my friends are looking out for me. It feels really great.
I should just try to be alone. Being with him will cause a lot of problems. Especially with my family... because they know everything about him. Mom's fine with it, she knows I'll be safe about it... but holy shit, I can't even imagine what my dad would say.
My friends know everything about him, too. I'd hate to have them be on the edge of their seat the whole time. But he really does make me happy. I don't know why he does, but he does.
I don't know. I guess I'm just afraid of all the changes when I get back to arizona.
I don't do well with change. Though, me going to indiana was a change within itself.
I had talked to adam, maybe a week ago, about going to the doctor with me when I got home. He seem interested, but has not shown any further interest (aka, he still has not given me his schedule so I can make an appointment.. nor has he answered any of my phone calls). I was thinking of having jerod go with me. But now I see that I should probably just deal with this myself. Mom's really worried about me. I'll be fine, though.
Umm.
Jerod says he recommended me to a place that's hiring. It pays thirteen an hour, but I don't know whether that'd be full time or not. Jen says her place of business is looking for people, too... that's ten an hour and it would be full time. And my roommate paul informed me that guitar center needs a door person. Hopefully one of those works out! I love that my friends are looking out for me. It feels really great.