i really know how it feels to be .....
I had a lovely day, worked really hard on my paper and felt like all was right with the world. I had made significant progress with my work, felt that I was a successful part of the human race, until I came home after a brutally awfully meal at the local pub and looked at my work and felt abysmal. I have since had a minor meltdown, taking Chris along for the very precarious ride. I have absolutely no confidence that anything I do now is going to benefit in the future. I am not excellent at anything, good at a lot of things, no specialized skills.I feel like I have very little to offer. I hate that I care if I am satisfied with my position in life in terms of success and that success is equated with employment and education. I feel like I have forgotten how to communicate. I am extremely hard on myself, reactively so. I don`t do proactive things to stave off the ridiculous cycle of stress and anxiety that every attempt I make to better myself eventually ends in. I am so unsure of myself these days.