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So angsty
I need to get my head out of the past and out of the future, and into the present. I like to think that I can predict what is coming, but I can't. I cannot. Not with matters of the heart. And I know that when I am here, in the present, that that is when I feel the most. Whether it be the happiest feeling or the saddest feeling or the angriest feeling. But, I can appreciate it, because it's happening. It has not happened, or will happen, it's happening.
There's no point in replaying scenarios in my head, or creating scenarios, because I will dig too deep, or expect too much. I say that there isn't a point to it, but I will do it. Because, that is not my nature.
I wish that people wouldn't belittle others, and say hurtful things (when it's not clear whether they are a joke or not.) I wish this, but I know that I should focus on what I can do about that, not what the world should do about that. Also, I know that I 'deserve' this, because I have done the same. I don't want to anymore, it hurts so much.
Oh life.
How can you learn so much from one person, without them knowing it?
I need to get my head out of the past and out of the future, and into the present. I like to think that I can predict what is coming, but I can't. I cannot. Not with matters of the heart. And I know that when I am here, in the present, that that is when I feel the most. Whether it be the happiest feeling or the saddest feeling or the angriest feeling. But, I can appreciate it, because it's happening. It has not happened, or will happen, it's happening.
There's no point in replaying scenarios in my head, or creating scenarios, because I will dig too deep, or expect too much. I say that there isn't a point to it, but I will do it. Because, that is not my nature.
I wish that people wouldn't belittle others, and say hurtful things (when it's not clear whether they are a joke or not.) I wish this, but I know that I should focus on what I can do about that, not what the world should do about that. Also, I know that I 'deserve' this, because I have done the same. I don't want to anymore, it hurts so much.
Oh life.
How can you learn so much from one person, without them knowing it?