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I feel disgusting and flabby, I've been eating shit since I've been interstate to see my boyfriend. He is a big bloke, and doesnt eat all that well but the real killer is the alcohol. I'm drinking almost everynight and when I even fleetingly think about the sheer mass of calories I've consumed I feel like gagging. Why is food so very tied into relationships, why cant I just relax and see it the way he does, as a treat, not an ordeal.
Will post again when I get back home, I need to be in my own house eating my own food again. There isnt even a set of scales here.
-Claire