Hey Lush Have Fun It's The Weekend
I feel so alone.
I'm sitting in my room and all these thoughts are taking over my mind and brain.
What's happened to everything?
Never in my life would I have ever imagined being where I am now.
I never would have thought my cousin wouldn't want to be around me or shut me out. I hate hearing about his life from MY friends, he'd rather hangout with MY friends without me. He's not the same person. I don't know what happened to him. It tears me up inside but there's really nothing I can do anything. I have to learn to let go even if its one of the hardest things I'll ever have to do.
Kinda like losing the best friend I had for 10 years. I thought she would be my friend till the day I died but again I was wrong. One person I thought would always be there for me....makes me feel dumb knowing I believe in others so much and not in myself.
The only good thing about this entry is I found an AMAZING best friend.
He means more to me than life itself. I love him with everything I have in me.
He's the best thing that's happened to me in a longg long time and I couldn't be more grateful. I can't even describe it, it literally makes me at a loss of words. I can be myself at all times and its such a great feeling. He's seen me at really bad moments I've had and yet he is still there. I'm glad he entered my life, he's changed me in ways I don't even know haha if that makes any sense at all.
hes here :)
I'm sitting in my room and all these thoughts are taking over my mind and brain.
What's happened to everything?
Never in my life would I have ever imagined being where I am now.
I never would have thought my cousin wouldn't want to be around me or shut me out. I hate hearing about his life from MY friends, he'd rather hangout with MY friends without me. He's not the same person. I don't know what happened to him. It tears me up inside but there's really nothing I can do anything. I have to learn to let go even if its one of the hardest things I'll ever have to do.
Kinda like losing the best friend I had for 10 years. I thought she would be my friend till the day I died but again I was wrong. One person I thought would always be there for me....makes me feel dumb knowing I believe in others so much and not in myself.
The only good thing about this entry is I found an AMAZING best friend.
He means more to me than life itself. I love him with everything I have in me.
He's the best thing that's happened to me in a longg long time and I couldn't be more grateful. I can't even describe it, it literally makes me at a loss of words. I can be myself at all times and its such a great feeling. He's seen me at really bad moments I've had and yet he is still there. I'm glad he entered my life, he's changed me in ways I don't even know haha if that makes any sense at all.
hes here :)