I Didnt Mean To Feel The Way I Do It Just Happened By Itself && Im Sick Inside
wow fuck the internet. Its queer.
You know what? I dispise thinking.
Its one of the worst things in the world, well not really but it's close.
Why do I always seem so close yet so far away at the same exact time?
Ughhh...I feel trapped inside a place I dont want to be. I dont even know how to explain it.
The things I want will never ever in a million years happen. There is no way it's even
possible. && it kills me inside.
Theres no way I can get around it.
Its always there inside my mind.
I cant escape.
No matter how hard I try to get things to go away they wont.
I dont understand why.
The say things happen for a reason. Whats the reason?
Why do things have to be like this?
Why do I have to be in so much pain?
Its not supossed to be in this much pain.
I'm supossed to get better, things are supossed to be different.
They arent supossed to end like this.
Its not over, its not.
No matter what anyone says, its not, at least not for me. It never will be.
There wasnt really any closure.
Make me happy.
Make me smile.
Please stop the pain.
Act like you care, show you care.
I cant help the way I feel and neither can you.
I know things will never be the way they once were.
It hurts me so bad to know thats the way it has to be.
I love you so much, I would never hurt you, please know this.
I love friends. They make me feel better.
Yay to them. If I didnt have them I'd be dead by now seriously.
High Fives && Hugs to all.
Fuck thinking.
If you were here you would say "Stop Angry Typing." well im not angry typing just so you know.
You are the only thing.
You make me want to live just incase there's some hope.
I wish you would tell me everything.
Tell me how you feel and what you felt.
Whats the difference?
I found my birthday wish.
I know for a fact it wont ever happen. Ever.
It would only make things harder for me. It would make me confused.
Just one last time.
Please?
I miss goodnights.
I miss you.
You know what? I dispise thinking.
Its one of the worst things in the world, well not really but it's close.
Why do I always seem so close yet so far away at the same exact time?
Ughhh...I feel trapped inside a place I dont want to be. I dont even know how to explain it.
The things I want will never ever in a million years happen. There is no way it's even
possible. && it kills me inside.
Theres no way I can get around it.
Its always there inside my mind.
I cant escape.
No matter how hard I try to get things to go away they wont.
I dont understand why.
The say things happen for a reason. Whats the reason?
Why do things have to be like this?
Why do I have to be in so much pain?
Its not supossed to be in this much pain.
I'm supossed to get better, things are supossed to be different.
They arent supossed to end like this.
Its not over, its not.
No matter what anyone says, its not, at least not for me. It never will be.
There wasnt really any closure.
Make me happy.
Make me smile.
Please stop the pain.
Act like you care, show you care.
I cant help the way I feel and neither can you.
I know things will never be the way they once were.
It hurts me so bad to know thats the way it has to be.
I love you so much, I would never hurt you, please know this.
I love friends. They make me feel better.
Yay to them. If I didnt have them I'd be dead by now seriously.
High Fives && Hugs to all.
Fuck thinking.
If you were here you would say "Stop Angry Typing." well im not angry typing just so you know.
You are the only thing.
You make me want to live just incase there's some hope.
I wish you would tell me everything.
Tell me how you feel and what you felt.
Whats the difference?
I found my birthday wish.
I know for a fact it wont ever happen. Ever.
It would only make things harder for me. It would make me confused.
Just one last time.
Please?
I miss goodnights.
I miss you.