this just in
hmm, alright. so its almost 5am. i have class in four hours. my paper has been half-way done now since thursday when i started it. one of my roommates said i was an underachiever. yet i'm a perfectionist. which is my trouble with this damn philosophy paper. i am in no way motivated to write it, yet i want it to be perfect. and so since i want it to be perfect, but don't want to do it, i've somehow accepted the fact that it cannot be perfect, thus its not getting done. but it was due friday, i have to pass this course, and i may or may not have a midterm exam tomorrow. i can't skip, i can't not finish this paper, i can't study, i can't miss work, and i can't sleep. i'm not doing anything right now, and i can't understand why.
if anything high school has taught me, its that overachieving will get me nowhere. i made straight a's, but never passed. i worked for the girl and got dumped. i followed every order and was never promoted.
college isn't helping. i am by no means a good writer, but i like to do it when i'm motivated with a message i think people should hear. meanwhile, i'm graded poorly on my most thought-out essays, and graded best on what i pull out of my ass. and so the course of procrastination extends when these same assignments repeat. its the first paper i have to write this semester, and already this routine has become tedious.
blah.
the mid-week roadtrip to austin on tuesday might just save me..
if anything high school has taught me, its that overachieving will get me nowhere. i made straight a's, but never passed. i worked for the girl and got dumped. i followed every order and was never promoted.
college isn't helping. i am by no means a good writer, but i like to do it when i'm motivated with a message i think people should hear. meanwhile, i'm graded poorly on my most thought-out essays, and graded best on what i pull out of my ass. and so the course of procrastination extends when these same assignments repeat. its the first paper i have to write this semester, and already this routine has become tedious.
blah.
the mid-week roadtrip to austin on tuesday might just save me..