Fearless.
I haven't updated in some time. I decided to be open & share here.
I'm recovering from a decade long battle with an eating disorder. Bulimia.
But I'm being positive now, and facing it. Fighting for what I want.
It's been said "Change is good". Inevitable too.
I've been overweight most of my life, thick, chubby, all the different stages of it over weight.
I had a few points of weight loss, being at an average weight and then also what some said was "thin".
But I didn't feel like I was. My self worth and esteem was so low I couldn't believe I wasn't "fat".
That, and the whole being bulimic part. I tried for years to stop, mostly just binged. Then it turned into just compulsive over eating. And I gained, and gained. I don't know my exact weight now, I ordered a well reviewed scale from Amazon.com though. Should be here Monday.
For the last 2 weeks I've changed my eating habits drastically. I eat cleaner, measure food and count calories.
I walk a mile or close to it every day with my dog in the mornings.
I hit the gym for at least 80-90 mins, treadmill. I'm working on upping the time to 300 mins for the day, and doing other exercise too.
This weekend I'm working on weights to help me tone.
I've kept my daily calories at or under 1,300. That may be a lot of calories for the weight I'm trying to lose though.
So far, I've noticed slight results. Less bloated belly, I can fit into jeans I couldn't wear before. I still have a muffin top but I know that'll be gone in a few weeks.
Realistic Goal Weight : 160, I'm 5'8.
Ideal Goal Weight: 140 (also depends on my actual BMI I may want more lbs in muscle later)
I want to fit back into my Hollister clothes, especially my size 6 jeans. Maybe even a 4.
Currently I'm huge size 16. :(
I sometimes want to say "I don't know how I got this big" ... but I know. So I'm fighting the eating disorder.
I started the Alli plan, so far I think it's helping too.
I've struggled with staying Vegan, though I've continued as a Vegetarian for 7 years.
I've had to question my ethics and moral compass as to why I can't stay a Vegan.
And I know it's a healthier chose all around. I'll get back to this another time.
I've posted a current picture of myself. It's embarrassing but it will show as my BEFORE photo.
I'm recovering from a decade long battle with an eating disorder. Bulimia.
But I'm being positive now, and facing it. Fighting for what I want.
It's been said "Change is good". Inevitable too.
I've been overweight most of my life, thick, chubby, all the different stages of it over weight.
I had a few points of weight loss, being at an average weight and then also what some said was "thin".
But I didn't feel like I was. My self worth and esteem was so low I couldn't believe I wasn't "fat".
That, and the whole being bulimic part. I tried for years to stop, mostly just binged. Then it turned into just compulsive over eating. And I gained, and gained. I don't know my exact weight now, I ordered a well reviewed scale from Amazon.com though. Should be here Monday.
For the last 2 weeks I've changed my eating habits drastically. I eat cleaner, measure food and count calories.
I walk a mile or close to it every day with my dog in the mornings.
I hit the gym for at least 80-90 mins, treadmill. I'm working on upping the time to 300 mins for the day, and doing other exercise too.
This weekend I'm working on weights to help me tone.
I've kept my daily calories at or under 1,300. That may be a lot of calories for the weight I'm trying to lose though.
So far, I've noticed slight results. Less bloated belly, I can fit into jeans I couldn't wear before. I still have a muffin top but I know that'll be gone in a few weeks.
Realistic Goal Weight : 160, I'm 5'8.
Ideal Goal Weight: 140 (also depends on my actual BMI I may want more lbs in muscle later)
I want to fit back into my Hollister clothes, especially my size 6 jeans. Maybe even a 4.
Currently I'm huge size 16. :(
I sometimes want to say "I don't know how I got this big" ... but I know. So I'm fighting the eating disorder.
I started the Alli plan, so far I think it's helping too.
I've struggled with staying Vegan, though I've continued as a Vegetarian for 7 years.
I've had to question my ethics and moral compass as to why I can't stay a Vegan.
And I know it's a healthier chose all around. I'll get back to this another time.
I've posted a current picture of myself. It's embarrassing but it will show as my BEFORE photo.