Progress... kind of.

Jul 23, 2011 01:55

 An appointment finally opened up for August 22nd and I jumped on it.

Unfortunately, that's three days before the family wants me there and visas take fifteen to twenty-one days to process.

Last year one of my friends pulled some strings and got herself an expedited visa in a matter of days.  But I can't make that happen for me somehow, I won't be back till early September.

It would be nice to know so I could buy what I hope will be my last one-way ticket between the United States and France.

Can I just say?

I feel like I was meant for France.  I feel the way people in movies feel when they've found their soulmate.

I have been studying French with passion since I was thirteen years old.  They didn't offer French class till I was fourteen, so I bought a French-English dictionary a year early and tried to teach myself.

I have been obsessed with shows as long as I can remember.  In America, that makes me singular and makes it hard to relate to me.  In France, it made 200+ people send me facebook friend requests.

I have also always wanted to feel like I was special and important.
  In France, I'm immediately interesting and memorable because of my nationality.

I have always wanted to live in a big city.  I have always wanted to lose weight without trying.  I have always wanted to feel like I belonged to something, like I was a part of something.

I feel like I was meant for France.  We didn't know it at first; the first few months we bickered and squabbled and I dreamed about home.  It wasn't until I visited America for the first time, last Christmas, that I realized how hard I had fallen for France.  This summer has only cemented it and made me know for a fact that it was true.  I want back.

Second semester I never missed anything from home except, every once in a while, macaroni and cheese.

I have done nothing since May but lie around complaining about all the things I miss from Paris.

I want back and I want to stay.

whinging, fille au pair, paris

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