Random Dream
Whee! I had a dream that I was getting married.
Unfortunately for me, I had no clue what was happening. Yes, I knew it was my wedding, but I didn't know how everything was supposed to work. I was wondering around near clueless most of the time. And I didn't even have flowers, damnit!
Least my dress was pretty... ::grin::
I can go into great detail, as I remember quite a bit of it, but I dun feel like it. Who was the groom? It was Dan. ::noddle:: Kay, nm. I have to explain it for any of it to make any sort of sense at all.
So it starts off with me walking in to the church. I assumed it was a church, as it very much had the look of one. I saw everyone getting things ready, as I'm in my pretty white dress. Someone said "Oh good! you're here!" I was like "...yeah... um..." "Oh! we're almost done. Have you seen Dan?" "...not... supposed... to..."
I walk away from the main group, but not too far, when I hear someone say, "Oh! There's Dan! He's here!" I'm like "...nyah! Not supposed to see groom!" So I slipped out of the main room, as everyone else was gathering around him. I did see him, he looked happy. I found myself in a hallway where some other people were. they smiled nicely to me. I returned the smile. I found myself finding my way into a bathroom to attempt to fix my dress.
No clue what was wrong with it, but I had to fix it.
Without actually getting what I wanted done, I heard the music playing that indicated I was supposed to enter. You know, the entire "here comes the bride" sort of music. I remember stopping in mid attempt to fix dress with this blank look, as I try to figure out if that's really what I thought it was. Everything was going so fast!! And I barely had any idea what was happening!
So..... I enter through the side door. Everyone just kinda looked at me. I blinked, and started heading to the aisle. Someone pointed me towards the back of my room. I blinked at them, then looked over and saw my uncle standing there. I thnk it was my uncle Jim, not sure, though. I smiled and went over to him. I was so confused! He asked me if I was ready, I said "Um... I don't know... I don't have flowers." he told me I didn't need flowers, I looked beautiful without them.
Yeah, I smiled. Whee!
He walked me down the aisle... to the stage thing. A raised dias, maybe that's a better description... but it seriously reminded me of a stage. He turned me towards him, kissed my cheek, and then had me walk up the stairs by myself to the alter.
...there was a carousel horse on the dias... in front of the alter. It didn't even make sense to me... but it was there. I had to go around it in order to get to the alter. I saw Dan there. The audience could see Dan... I had to stand behind the horse... which dwarfed me in size... I wasn't seen. I frowned at that.
Not entirely sure why, or how... but the horse thing started leaning. Leaning... towards me. I was like "ack! horsie! bad!" and started pushing it, as inconspicuously as I could, away. I don't know what the priest was saying... but I did hear someone stop everything. I was like, "yes! stop! horse thing!"
...yeah, I was ignored...
It was Dan's mom who stopped it. And, naturally, all stopped because she deemed it so ::mutter:: She went over to Dan and started talking to him. I'm trying to move the horse thing, and looked at Dan. I asked him what she said, as I couldn't hear. He smiled at me, and said it was nothing, and not to worry. I was like ...my...wedding...day... told not to worry... can't hear what you're discussing... humina?
She waved her hand, kissed Dan's cheek, and went back to the audience. I still don't know what they said. Dan, though, started talking to the priest, then. And he did something, giving him money or something, I don't know. I asked Dan and the priest what they were saying, and they just looked at me wondering why I was asking, then continued talking.
I frowned at that, and felt just all left out. ... and damn that carousel horse for not stopping with the leaningness! I happened to glance out into the audience, and I saw my sister there, sitting next to my cousin Rayna. My first thought was ... "I didn't get bridesmaids?!"
My sister frowned at me when she caught my eye. Both she and Rayna shook their heads some, and Shawna made a slight motion that I should go to her. I was thinking, "but... I'm getting married..." Of course, I looked over to Dan, who was still talking to the priest, then at my sister...
I stepped passed the horse, and let it fall as it would. I took Dan's arm and pulled him aside. He looked at me. I looked into his eyes, not entirely sure how to explain to him. I felt his hand on my cheek, and saw the question in his eyes as to whether or not I was okay. I pulled him into a deep kiss.
When I broke away, he almost protested about the entire supposed to wait until the "kiss the bride" part.. I started speaking before he did. I told him, "I love you. But I can't... I just can't."
I gave him a sad smile, then turned and headed down the stairs. I looked at Shawna and Rayna only once, then walked quickly down the aisle to the exit, trying not to cry.
I think I woke up after... as I don't remember anything else. ... Talk about dreams that make you wake up feeling like crap.
I didn't even get flowers to hold. ::pouts:: Or bridesmaids! So wrong.