My Rant

[leshara]

Are you ever faced with a sitution in which you have to choose between one path and another, yet whichever you choose will cause you pain? And the choice isn't so much between which one will cause you less pain, but which one is right regardless of how it makes you feel? I don't often talk about what goes on with me anymore.. I guess i feel like I've used up my 'quota' of peoples time and attention. Its just that frustration can cause you to act out of character, and I am both frustrated and acting out of character. I vowed that I would never use this post to rant or vent or wallow an yet I am doing just that. I am confused and I don't know what to do, and I can't tell anyone why. I can tell David, but he's not a Christian, and is quite useless because of it. And what Christian can i talk to who has enough distance between them and those involved? I'm backed into a corner, and i don't know what to do. Ah well, feelings pass. And what are feelings anyway, but a neurochemical response to a stimulus? And it isn't like I havn't been stuck in this same hole before. Its just that the promise I made not to discuss any of it, is somehow more annoying than usuall.

Ok. Enough with the cryptic comments. I'm sorry. They say that venting releases tension, and even a clandestine vent serves this function. *sigh* At least I can't complain that life is boring. And somehow i think that a boring life would be far worse than a complicated one