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If I could die right now I think I would. I bet this is how old people feel when they just want to die they're sick of holding on... or being forced to hold on. I'm too tired to live. I just want to graduate and sleep the summer away. I don't want to be around anyone so fuck that. I'm just going to hope to fucking god that the SPCA calls me back and puts me on nightshifts like she said. If I get my licence on thursday then I can definatly volounteer there. I have to keep the puppies in mind. Theres only one left. His name is jack and hes beautiful. Hes actually getting neutered today so wish him luck :). I put my name on the phone but I forgot to say fostering aswell so there's no way in hell I'm going to get him. If they call me back I'll definatly get a kitten to care for before the summer is out and then I won't feel like my life is a total waste. The UPEI humane society e mailed me back and I'm going to go there in July to have a orientation type thing for september. I start at september first, if the orientation goes well.. and I end right before xmas. Then again in January hopefully if they like me that much right through to the next september. I think if I like pei that much I'm just going to go ahead and do the summer semester and get my degree done that much quicker. The only reasons I'l hve to come home are kirsten, and I'm sure she could come visit me, aswell as michelle who I know will visit me anyway.. hopefully. I'm just geting sick of corner brook as hell and I know its a beautiful place but I'm just growing old of it. I have 12 hours to decide whether or not I'm going to grad. I don't really want to... The fees have to go in tomorrow and my nan has to start making my dress. I can remember when I was little saying I wasnt going out for halloween and having that gut feeling inside that I want to go anyway... but I'm not getting that for grad so maybe I'll just get my parents to put a donation into the SPCA in my name instead of spending money on my dress. Hopefully :/. A hundred dollars would go a long way for food and the neuter/spay fun. *ponders* Maybe I will .. Eileen isn't going to grad and she dosen't seem bothered. the only reason i'm really going anyway is to not piss off my parents becuase they always get mmad at the notion of me being so anti social.
They think that the money I'm spending latley on the SPCA is a waste.. so they'll definatly be uber pissy at me if I don't go to grad and give the money to them instead. Fuck. They look at me like I'm an idoit and its a waste of time but since I found out they're saving up for a new place, I'm all for it. I just need to get rid of this fatigue I carry with me everywhere so I can put all into the puppies and kitties.
Aw.. one was clawing at jayme she loved her it was adorable. Then she grabbed my hair and I was stuck to the cage. I think the stuff that I bought them will help me get into volounteer space. I dont say that to be stupid but I donno. I went to wal mart and bought all kinds of puppy and cat food and collars .. a dog tug toy and all kinds of kittie toys. :) they needed them but wholly shit do they ever have a GIANT supply of dog and cat food. They opened the doors and it was crazy! all the same brand and Everything! I'm so proud of them! <3
I guess I shall go think some more as to what to do.. and think about studying for math.. as I was supposed to start forever ago!
Ehnnn *zzzzzzzzzz*
Isn't he adoarble?! Hes absoloutly HUGHE in person though! he looks so small. They say hes going to be a medium sized dog but by the size of his paws.. na-uh no way!
They think that the money I'm spending latley on the SPCA is a waste.. so they'll definatly be uber pissy at me if I don't go to grad and give the money to them instead. Fuck. They look at me like I'm an idoit and its a waste of time but since I found out they're saving up for a new place, I'm all for it. I just need to get rid of this fatigue I carry with me everywhere so I can put all into the puppies and kitties.
Aw.. one was clawing at jayme she loved her it was adorable. Then she grabbed my hair and I was stuck to the cage. I think the stuff that I bought them will help me get into volounteer space. I dont say that to be stupid but I donno. I went to wal mart and bought all kinds of puppy and cat food and collars .. a dog tug toy and all kinds of kittie toys. :) they needed them but wholly shit do they ever have a GIANT supply of dog and cat food. They opened the doors and it was crazy! all the same brand and Everything! I'm so proud of them! <3
I guess I shall go think some more as to what to do.. and think about studying for math.. as I was supposed to start forever ago!
Ehnnn *zzzzzzzzzz*
Isn't he adoarble?! Hes absoloutly HUGHE in person though! he looks so small. They say hes going to be a medium sized dog but by the size of his paws.. na-uh no way!