Improving on imperfections… [Part 1]
Traditionally, the beginning of a new year is also supposed to be the beginning of change for those who want it. “New Year’s resolution” we call them. With these we make little promises or oaths to either ourselves or others, in hopes of actually following suit with what we said sometime before the year ends. I’ve never been one for resolutions myself. I’ve seen countless people make them and then fail only to be more disappointed in themselves than when they first made the promise. That was, at one point, a road I would have much rather avoided. Over time, though, a person changes, and so does his or her opinions and whatnot. Needless to say, my opinion on the subject changed a bit and this year I decided “What the hell…I’ll join the bandwagon this time around and make a resolution or two”
In January, I had to ask myself who I was and, truthfully, I didn't really know. I mean I knew that I was a reserved, shy kid who really didn't go out of his way to make new friends or talk with that many people, but besides that....there was not too much else I knew about myself. I told myself that it was time for an improvement in who I was. At first, I was a bit reluctant towards the idea when it first came up (yes, I know...becoming reluctant to my own ideas?) fearing that even the slightest change in me would cause a transformation of who I am to a person who I had not even the faintest concept of. That was, until, I noticed the word I had chosen to describe it at first: Improve. To improve something it not to actually change it, but to do just what the word implies, to add upon something that is already there in an effort to make it better. That involves no change (well, not in the way I was thinking of it), no transformation, no complete opposite. It simply involves the task of self-growth.
Upon viewing it this way, I had no problem with delving into the unknown.
My main goal was to step out of my shell once and for all and not look back. I started off simply enough, right here on LJ as a matter of fact (is it matter “a”fact or matter “of” fact?). I decided to add a few random people to my friends list just to simply test the waters a bit. At first it seemed to be going fine. I added people, they added me back…we had no problems with one another, things were good. Then, a few weeks later, I noticed that most of the people I had recently added were dropping me from their list one right after another. I still have no idea why that happened; perhaps it was because I didn’t leave a comment on every one of their entries or something. I didn’t lose everyone I added though, some of you are still here and I am very much enjoying everyone’s company. This routine continued for a few months. I would add quite a few people, lose the interest of most, yet still be able to keep a few around. I think I finally grew tired of it sometime around March and gave up on getting to know an absurd amount of LJ people. I’m glad that I did though because I am very content with the Thirty-something people on my list (Not counting duplicate journals). Though, In-between January to March, I wasn’t just occupying all my time with adding random people from LJ, I also took a bit of another step towards my ultimate goal…
[to be continued…]
Also, I know that it might seem odd to read about a 20 year old who has such a difficulty making new friends and stepping out of his comfort zone every so often in an attempt to meet new people, but it truly was an uphill battle for me (and still is in some regards).
In January, I had to ask myself who I was and, truthfully, I didn't really know. I mean I knew that I was a reserved, shy kid who really didn't go out of his way to make new friends or talk with that many people, but besides that....there was not too much else I knew about myself. I told myself that it was time for an improvement in who I was. At first, I was a bit reluctant towards the idea when it first came up (yes, I know...becoming reluctant to my own ideas?) fearing that even the slightest change in me would cause a transformation of who I am to a person who I had not even the faintest concept of. That was, until, I noticed the word I had chosen to describe it at first: Improve. To improve something it not to actually change it, but to do just what the word implies, to add upon something that is already there in an effort to make it better. That involves no change (well, not in the way I was thinking of it), no transformation, no complete opposite. It simply involves the task of self-growth.
Upon viewing it this way, I had no problem with delving into the unknown.
My main goal was to step out of my shell once and for all and not look back. I started off simply enough, right here on LJ as a matter of fact (is it matter “a”fact or matter “of” fact?). I decided to add a few random people to my friends list just to simply test the waters a bit. At first it seemed to be going fine. I added people, they added me back…we had no problems with one another, things were good. Then, a few weeks later, I noticed that most of the people I had recently added were dropping me from their list one right after another. I still have no idea why that happened; perhaps it was because I didn’t leave a comment on every one of their entries or something. I didn’t lose everyone I added though, some of you are still here and I am very much enjoying everyone’s company. This routine continued for a few months. I would add quite a few people, lose the interest of most, yet still be able to keep a few around. I think I finally grew tired of it sometime around March and gave up on getting to know an absurd amount of LJ people. I’m glad that I did though because I am very content with the Thirty-something people on my list (Not counting duplicate journals). Though, In-between January to March, I wasn’t just occupying all my time with adding random people from LJ, I also took a bit of another step towards my ultimate goal…
[to be continued…]
Also, I know that it might seem odd to read about a 20 year old who has such a difficulty making new friends and stepping out of his comfort zone every so often in an attempt to meet new people, but it truly was an uphill battle for me (and still is in some regards).