it started out with a kiss, how did it end up like this, it was only a kiss, IT WAS ONLY A KISS

[leprechaun23]

i've been doing just fine
keeping busy for the most part
just going to sleep is the hardest part
i need kirk more than anything right now
it seems like the only way that i can get through to him is just to not talk to him
maybe then he will see how much i care & how much he misses me
this is the price i pay for wanting something so unatainable at this age ya know?
i just dont want him to let me go
it's killing me
he says "ashley i am miserable i need to get my head clear so that i can be the man you need me to be"
i say "you dont have to change one thing to be hte man that i want you to be. go anyway and find what it is you need and are looking for. if you come back then this is what is meant to be. i know that in my heart i could be content with you forever"
he says "yeah me too."
i just don't know anymore
i know he cares and wants to make things work
he just has to get his life straught
he says that i have only experienced one fourth of the man he can be
im content with that 1/4
i acn only imagine
xo
ashley