Looking back and staring forward
As cliche as it sounds, this is my 1st entry of 2006.
Through the ups and downs of 2005, I am somewhat changed. Not necessary better person but just different. The child like part of me seem to be fading away, my believe in fairy tales and happily ever after has no longer sustain my hopes and dreams. In placement of it, I found a box of bitter sweet candy hiding at a corner of my heart's freezer named "reality check".
Never thought I would say this but I am officially tired of "relationship". Look back at my passed entries, I have about 15 entries on my break up and nothing else. I have been dwelling on it like there's nothing else in my life. Like nothing else matters anymore.
"Why is it so hard to find a guy who has a mutual strong attraction and trying to work things out?" A friend sighed.
Apparently it is hard, it's harder than any mathematics formula ever exist. The reason being very simple, there's no logic in human's heart, it changes as in when, where and how it likes. It doesn't matter how much effort you put it or how hard you tried. There's no equation or policy to assure your effort will be eventually rewarded.
In school, we learnt that if we study hard enough, we will be rewarded with better results. In adult working life, we learnt that if we work hard and smart enough, eventually we will be rewarded ( one way or another). In love, we learnt human heart is the most ridiculous object, it flip and turn however it like. Get hurt at your own risk.
As a new year resolution, maybe investing my energy in something substantial would be a better idea. Don't you think so?
P/S: British accent still irritated the hell out of me!
Through the ups and downs of 2005, I am somewhat changed. Not necessary better person but just different. The child like part of me seem to be fading away, my believe in fairy tales and happily ever after has no longer sustain my hopes and dreams. In placement of it, I found a box of bitter sweet candy hiding at a corner of my heart's freezer named "reality check".
Never thought I would say this but I am officially tired of "relationship". Look back at my passed entries, I have about 15 entries on my break up and nothing else. I have been dwelling on it like there's nothing else in my life. Like nothing else matters anymore.
"Why is it so hard to find a guy who has a mutual strong attraction and trying to work things out?" A friend sighed.
Apparently it is hard, it's harder than any mathematics formula ever exist. The reason being very simple, there's no logic in human's heart, it changes as in when, where and how it likes. It doesn't matter how much effort you put it or how hard you tried. There's no equation or policy to assure your effort will be eventually rewarded.
In school, we learnt that if we study hard enough, we will be rewarded with better results. In adult working life, we learnt that if we work hard and smart enough, eventually we will be rewarded ( one way or another). In love, we learnt human heart is the most ridiculous object, it flip and turn however it like. Get hurt at your own risk.
As a new year resolution, maybe investing my energy in something substantial would be a better idea. Don't you think so?
P/S: British accent still irritated the hell out of me!