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i feel like the internet gives us everything too fast
nothing is left to the imagination
i recently came across my childhood crush on face book
in 2nd grade, the planets aligned for me and gave me the luckiest break of my life
i had moved next to the cutest kid not only in my neighborhood, but in my elementary school
funny enough i also moved next to the biggest geek (possibly in the world)
and we (amongst the other children)
grew up together
after middle school he moved away
and then i moved away
we all went to different high school
and we certainly did not befriend the same people
he grew up
and then i found him on facebook
he's still a good looking guy, but some how
all his features have hardened
he always looked like trouble
but he had childhood innocence on his side
which gave him this fantastic way about him
now hes just
gross
the ugliest tattoos pollute his body
his head shaved
hes built himself up too big for his frame
and its not even like his personality could make up for it
i had a conversation with him
hes as dumb as rocks
and seems to not..really have grown as a person
i dont know what i was expecting
i was hoping i could be happy for him
see that the potential that had clung to him in childhood had finally flourished with manhood
no such luck
im certainly disillusioned.