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everything kind of fell apart at the same time.
people who i need kind of stopped caring all at the same time.
everyone got so used to being able to shit on ashley because theres no worries she'll bounce back and always be there. or maybe it just wouldnt be that big of a loss.
im not needed or missed and iv come to realize that.
im sorry if i havent spoke to some of you in awhile because i know iv left out a lot of people. but i can honestly say im really not ok.
i hide everything. just know that.
i cant explain whats going on either.
i cant explain having a million thoughts racing through your head and one thought at the same time.
i cant explain just wanting to scream and peal off my skin to escape.
i cant explain no thinking youre worth it because thats what other people think.
everyone cares and at the same time everyone doesnt.
i dont know what i need. i dont even know if what i want is what i want anymore.
im just not feeling well.
people who i need kind of stopped caring all at the same time.
everyone got so used to being able to shit on ashley because theres no worries she'll bounce back and always be there. or maybe it just wouldnt be that big of a loss.
im not needed or missed and iv come to realize that.
im sorry if i havent spoke to some of you in awhile because i know iv left out a lot of people. but i can honestly say im really not ok.
i hide everything. just know that.
i cant explain whats going on either.
i cant explain having a million thoughts racing through your head and one thought at the same time.
i cant explain just wanting to scream and peal off my skin to escape.
i cant explain no thinking youre worth it because thats what other people think.
everyone cares and at the same time everyone doesnt.
i dont know what i need. i dont even know if what i want is what i want anymore.
im just not feeling well.