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so i really think that i am have a break down because today i just lost it i didn't get to sleep last night until 5 in the morning after the worst night ever and then i was supposed to go to work today but i slept through my alarms so that sucked and jamie is going to be mad at me but he will get over it i would have lost it at work anyways so whatever i need to call chris and see if i can come in tomorrow because jamie won't be there and i need to go. i really don't know what is going on right now but i really think i am going to lose it like really lose it and not be able to function.....but i am going up north this weekend which is going to be fun hopefully because my brother and all his friends are playing in a basketball tournment which is going to be really funny and we are all just going to have a good time!!!!!! i just hope i don't drink and lose it because i don't wanna explain my problems to my brother and all his friends even though they would all try and help me i just don't want to do that because i just want to have a good time! maybe i just won't drink........yeah cause that will happen around all them. im really just hoping that we don't get kicked out of the campground because they are only supposed to have 4 people on a site and we are going to have 8 and a dog! well we will see. gonna go now before i start to lose my mind again because i am too emotional and i need to chill out...........................which is easier said than done!