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I have so much on my mind at the moment. I had an entry typed and just as I clicked post my computer crashed.
Life sucks lately.
There’s a boy I see around from time to time, and he is quite cute. I have always been intrigued by him, he seemed like such an interesting person. The attraction I had towards him was almost magnetic, so alluring, and thought provoking. Lately I’ve realized he is nothing more than a jerk. He plays girls, and has them wrapped around his little finger. He’s only interested in people visually, but I suppose that’s what attracted me to him in the first place. Superficiality is a flaw that I don’t want. This has all happened in a time of about 2-4 months, and I’ve finally decided to post about it. It’s a little disappointing. He really did seem interesting.
Things have been happening between Tom and me.
He’s such a player. I really liked him for who he was. I liked the person he was, I liked his personality, I liked the way he spoke to me, and I liked him. Not because of how he looked. But in a sense it was all worthless, because some people just can’t look behind the image in front of them. Some people are just so artificial and shallow. Well, I did like him. Things have changed now. I guess I realize what a pompous egotistical brat he is.
Thank you Tate, for sticking up for me and being there when I needed someone to talk to.. <3 you. And thank you Jason and Matt for being so insightful. And Matt, thank you for saying my journal entries are interesting as they are full of ‘teenage angst’. Meanie. =P Im happy.. *cough* Nah. School is stressing me out much.
I saw Nick yesterday. Awhile ago, he told me he loved me. He asked me if I felt the same, and if there was ever a chance. I ignored his request, as I didn’t really know what I wanted. And now I’ve been through all this crap, I realize how much I feel for him too. But I guess it’s too late for that now. This makes me sad. As long as we stay close, almost best friends then I’m happy.
Photography class tonight. I don’t really feel like taking photographs. I feel fat and ugly today. Fat on the outside. Ugly on the outside. Ugly on in the inside. I’m such a horrible person. Why am I so fucking crap? I try my best to be a good person but it just never turns out. I wish I was a nicer person. No photos for today. Elise is away. I hope everything is okay buttercup. ♥
Life sucks lately.
There’s a boy I see around from time to time, and he is quite cute. I have always been intrigued by him, he seemed like such an interesting person. The attraction I had towards him was almost magnetic, so alluring, and thought provoking. Lately I’ve realized he is nothing more than a jerk. He plays girls, and has them wrapped around his little finger. He’s only interested in people visually, but I suppose that’s what attracted me to him in the first place. Superficiality is a flaw that I don’t want. This has all happened in a time of about 2-4 months, and I’ve finally decided to post about it. It’s a little disappointing. He really did seem interesting.
Things have been happening between Tom and me.
He’s such a player. I really liked him for who he was. I liked the person he was, I liked his personality, I liked the way he spoke to me, and I liked him. Not because of how he looked. But in a sense it was all worthless, because some people just can’t look behind the image in front of them. Some people are just so artificial and shallow. Well, I did like him. Things have changed now. I guess I realize what a pompous egotistical brat he is.
Thank you Tate, for sticking up for me and being there when I needed someone to talk to.. <3 you. And thank you Jason and Matt for being so insightful. And Matt, thank you for saying my journal entries are interesting as they are full of ‘teenage angst’. Meanie. =P Im happy.. *cough* Nah. School is stressing me out much.
I saw Nick yesterday. Awhile ago, he told me he loved me. He asked me if I felt the same, and if there was ever a chance. I ignored his request, as I didn’t really know what I wanted. And now I’ve been through all this crap, I realize how much I feel for him too. But I guess it’s too late for that now. This makes me sad. As long as we stay close, almost best friends then I’m happy.
Photography class tonight. I don’t really feel like taking photographs. I feel fat and ugly today. Fat on the outside. Ugly on the outside. Ugly on in the inside. I’m such a horrible person. Why am I so fucking crap? I try my best to be a good person but it just never turns out. I wish I was a nicer person. No photos for today. Elise is away. I hope everything is okay buttercup. ♥