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i have been so manic lately. unbelievably manic. but ceaselessly tired. how? i stopped taking my medication again, because, to be eloquent, fuck it. it's not for me. i'd rather have my insanity and have me also. usually when my brain is this rapid-fire, shoot 'em up-paced, i produce more. i write more. i live more. i love more. i am more. for whatever reason, my extremities curl into my body lately and movement is near impossible. i ride bikes in my head. i start the only war that's justified. i am okay.