Stream of consciousness post
The full moon makes me more sensitive. I Felt Chris yesterday afternoon... longing and grief. The full moon has an effect on him too, it makes the memories of the loved ones he's lost come back more strongly.
I should clarify that Chris has had several head injuries, the last one so severe -he was ganged up on and beaten, almost killed, by several bastards- that he was in a coma for several days, lost a lot of memory and had an almost 180º change in personality. I know this because his mom told me.
I love Chris' mom. Joy is such a sweet person, but with a razor-sharp wit and viper tongue to those she dislikes. I'm so lucky she likes me ^ ^ Aside from being his mom, I'd love to have her as my mother-in-law because it would be just fabulous.
Trailer Fabulous... I like the show (something rare for me to like, seeing as it's produced by MTV!) but I wonder why they bother with some of these people. You can see that all the effort will just go to waste with tham. Seriously, if the place looked like a pigsty, there's a reason for it. Namely, these people really are trailer trash.
I'd rather live in a 8'x14' trailer with someone who loves me than in a mansion without love.
Twelve people in a mansion, locked in with cameras everywhere. Big Brother is so passé now. Survivor sucks, too. Besides, the very fact that people are conscious of the fact that there are cameras around kinda ruins the "reality" of it.
My reality: I'm 33 in a week, I'm still not working full-time, and I can't get a US visa to go meet the man I love... and I will break another man's heart, a kind, loving man who is in love with me, simply because his work keeps him away for such long periods that I haven't had the chance to form a real attachment to him.
I still want to meet Aaron, but not in a romantic sense. As a friend, yes, maybe even as a fling, but I don't want him to be in love with me. I don't want to spend all my time wondering if he's still thinking of his ex when he and I are having sex, I couldn't bear it if he said her name instead of mine.
I love Chris more than I love Aaron.
If... no, when I have my little girl, I 'm going to name her Elaine.
I should clarify that Chris has had several head injuries, the last one so severe -he was ganged up on and beaten, almost killed, by several bastards- that he was in a coma for several days, lost a lot of memory and had an almost 180º change in personality. I know this because his mom told me.
I love Chris' mom. Joy is such a sweet person, but with a razor-sharp wit and viper tongue to those she dislikes. I'm so lucky she likes me ^ ^ Aside from being his mom, I'd love to have her as my mother-in-law because it would be just fabulous.
Trailer Fabulous... I like the show (something rare for me to like, seeing as it's produced by MTV!) but I wonder why they bother with some of these people. You can see that all the effort will just go to waste with tham. Seriously, if the place looked like a pigsty, there's a reason for it. Namely, these people really are trailer trash.
I'd rather live in a 8'x14' trailer with someone who loves me than in a mansion without love.
Twelve people in a mansion, locked in with cameras everywhere. Big Brother is so passé now. Survivor sucks, too. Besides, the very fact that people are conscious of the fact that there are cameras around kinda ruins the "reality" of it.
My reality: I'm 33 in a week, I'm still not working full-time, and I can't get a US visa to go meet the man I love... and I will break another man's heart, a kind, loving man who is in love with me, simply because his work keeps him away for such long periods that I haven't had the chance to form a real attachment to him.
I still want to meet Aaron, but not in a romantic sense. As a friend, yes, maybe even as a fling, but I don't want him to be in love with me. I don't want to spend all my time wondering if he's still thinking of his ex when he and I are having sex, I couldn't bear it if he said her name instead of mine.
I love Chris more than I love Aaron.
If... no, when I have my little girl, I 'm going to name her Elaine.