Mission Report #7
The Network's gone quiet again. As quiet as it gets, anyway.
It was kind of weird yesterday, having Seifer show up like that. To be honest, I'm not really sure what to think about it.
I definitely don't miss him. He's one of the last people I'd want to see if I had a choice about it - he's been on my case my whole life. He betrayed Garden and SeeD... he tortured me... that last time at Lunatic Pandora, he gave Rinoa to Adel. He fed Rinoa to Adel. After everything he's done, if anything, I should hate him.
Maybe I do, a little. Ultimecia used him - she perverted his dream - but it's not like that makes everything okay. And even if it did, it's not like we were ever friends to begin with.
There are things I'd almost like to ask him... about what happened, and about what he remembers. Stuff like that.
Or maybe it's really more that I feel like I should apologize.
...It doesn't matter. I can't talk about any of that stuff with him. I've never been able to talk to Seifer; he wouldn't listen to me, and anything I said he'd just turn back around on me somehow. There's no point in opening myself up for that.
But it's funny... when I think about it, I'm really not all that surprised that it was him that turned up. He pretty much always does. The only constant of my life.
Even though I know that nothing lasts... people all eventually leave, or die, or just disappear... even though I know that everything ends, I almost feel like somehow he'll always be there. Wherever I go, no matter what I do, whatever else happens - sooner or later, Seifer will show up again.
...
...
...Kind of like a cockroach.
It was kind of weird yesterday, having Seifer show up like that. To be honest, I'm not really sure what to think about it.
I definitely don't miss him. He's one of the last people I'd want to see if I had a choice about it - he's been on my case my whole life. He betrayed Garden and SeeD... he tortured me... that last time at Lunatic Pandora, he gave Rinoa to Adel. He fed Rinoa to Adel. After everything he's done, if anything, I should hate him.
Maybe I do, a little. Ultimecia used him - she perverted his dream - but it's not like that makes everything okay. And even if it did, it's not like we were ever friends to begin with.
There are things I'd almost like to ask him... about what happened, and about what he remembers. Stuff like that.
Or maybe it's really more that I feel like I should apologize.
...It doesn't matter. I can't talk about any of that stuff with him. I've never been able to talk to Seifer; he wouldn't listen to me, and anything I said he'd just turn back around on me somehow. There's no point in opening myself up for that.
But it's funny... when I think about it, I'm really not all that surprised that it was him that turned up. He pretty much always does. The only constant of my life.
Even though I know that nothing lasts... people all eventually leave, or die, or just disappear... even though I know that everything ends, I almost feel like somehow he'll always be there. Wherever I go, no matter what I do, whatever else happens - sooner or later, Seifer will show up again.
...
...
...Kind of like a cockroach.