Belated New Year's Resolution

Feb 18, 2006 00:24

Wrote this for an email and decided that it'd work pretty well here too. I'll be adding to it, don't worry ( Read more... )

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leon_blanco March 2 2006, 20:02:02 UTC
There is some rather good advice in this comment. And most of it, I already know. It is hard to get over someone, that I know too well. I also know that letting it go is the only way to get over it. That will take me some time, but it will happen. I don't want to get back together with him because I know that a) It won't be the same, and b) I need to figure out what it is that I'm really looking for in my life. Not just relationships, but my future and who I am.
I know this all.
However, there is one thing that makes your advice sound accusitory, makes it have a backround noise of "Leah, you're the dumbest person in the world and nobody cares about you that much so do us a favor and either shut up or jump off a cliff and make sure you fall hard enough to not come back." From what I know of you, you are not the kind of person who would want to say this to someone they consider a friend. So I will tell you this now: Don't you ever, EVER tell me not write about something in my LJ just because "it's getting old hearing about it". My livejournal is here for me to pour out my raw feelings into it and to bitch and complain about how crappy my life isn't. If you don't want to hear about it, then don't read it. Simple as that. Saying "it's getting old" will only garner you a big "f*ck you" stamp, and I really don't like doing that to my friends.
If you truly meant to be hurtful, then the "f*ck you" stands. However, if all you meant by it was that you simply want to see me move on, get over it, and live the rest of my life in relative contentment, then I accept your advice and will think no more of the matter. I consider you a friend, and I personally don't think you meant what you said in a hurtful way. I'm messed up right now, so good things can be taken in the oddest of hurtful ways. I'm working on it, so don't worry about eggshells under your feet. Luvs!

-leah

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jadeembers April 4 2006, 21:38:08 UTC
Wow...That was certainly not the reply I was expecting.

1) I'll never tell you what you can or cannot post on your Livejoural. That's a given. I have no control over that, nor do I want to control it.

2) When I said that hearing about it was getting old. It's not that I want you to shut up entirely, but it's gotten to the point where the last two or three times you came into my house, that's all you talked about. Even when Bryan was in the next room! You also became strangely asphyxiated to knives, both the ones in my kitchen and Jeremy's pocketknife.

You can type what you want, but you need to understand that the public, meaning all of Society, gets bored easily. Your friends want to care about you, but they're not going to if they see that there effort is making no triumph. It's like putting money into a stock that's been steadily going down for 50 years, there's just no point.

Now, I'm not going to say anything more about this, because you're right, it does take time and if you don't heal right, you won't heal at all. It's something that you have to do on your own, so I'm not pushing it. Also, the last time we hung out, you seemed much better and a lot more fun to be around, so let's keep that up! :D

I hope we get to hang out again soon. 'Til then, keep posting.
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One of many that is stuck caring about you :P

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