and it's better off this way, so much better off this way

[leofairy]

I'm never going to see her again. I sort of rushed out of school without really considering it, with my friends, and realised afterwards I didnt say goodbye, I didnt take a last look, I didnt do anything, except scare Beki a bit. I hope she read the letter, I trust the person I eventually trusted it to enough to let her have it, because without it, the last thing I ever said to her was some stumbling, snarled threat last week and means I wont have ever got to say goodbye, and I sort of dont want to think about that being the case so I'll be in my corner of denial over here, thanks.

never again, never again. I'm never going to see her again.