I feel poisonous still..
More of the same.. I had blocked that e-mail address, because he was becoming an ass..... but, he got another e-mail address..
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August 29, 2000
I have important things to tell you that I think can help you. We ran into problems with our relationship because I was in a stage of life where I need to move forward as an adult and you were in a different stage of life to move forward into an adult. We both learn very important things from each other in our relationship. those are the things I want to talk about with you so we both can still learn from each other. I showed you how to easily take responsibility as an "adult" and shape it into a way of life that provides for you instead of taking away from you. You showed me how to not take life so seriously and to relax and enjoy the things that make life fun and passonate to engage in. I apologize for bashing you and our relationship earlier, it wasn't nice and I know I hurt your feelings, even though I know the subject were something you needed to hear from me. I didn't make it easy, I'm sorry I don't know how to tell you how I feel without some pain involved, but afterall, we did have a rether abrupt and painfull breakup.. thanks to me. I just want a chance to talk to you real with out either of us looking at each other the say way we did, but more onbjectivley so we can say the things that really mean something. I left on a note that wasn't truly myself just to make you feel better about me breaking up with you. or perhaps I was just trying to make myself feel better about breaking up with you. I don't know, that's why I wish to talk to you about this. I am sorry for being so rash and hotheaded with your responses, and I will try not to intentionally inflict pain towards you. Please write me back just for my sake. I didn't know how to talk to you rationally back in the day, I respect you as a person and I find the idea of conversing with you today intriguing.
~xxx
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He tried again after this, but I just kept blocking them, without reading them. Now, the next question: Do you people want to see when he supposedly turned a new leaf and became less of an ass, or shall I leave you all with this sour taste in your mouths? Well... several months later, he tried again, but after one of his friends had convinced me to give him another chance. Maybe that is my problem in life, that I am too forgiving and too easily convinced to give another chance to the undeserving. Who knows. Oh well.. I guess I am simply not one to hold a grudge. I think overall, it makes me a better person than most you will find out there; those who would never speak to an ex again, even if the parting was not all that unfriendly. Those who think there can be no "friendship" after a break up. I suppose there can, and it honestly depends on the people involved, and the relationship they had. I think the ending of this one in particular was about as bad as they get, short of him having abused my physically or trying to kill me.
For those of you, pholks who read my journal, hoping for drama and flair, here you have it. In a large dose....
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August 29, 2000
I have important things to tell you that I think can help you. We ran into problems with our relationship because I was in a stage of life where I need to move forward as an adult and you were in a different stage of life to move forward into an adult. We both learn very important things from each other in our relationship. those are the things I want to talk about with you so we both can still learn from each other. I showed you how to easily take responsibility as an "adult" and shape it into a way of life that provides for you instead of taking away from you. You showed me how to not take life so seriously and to relax and enjoy the things that make life fun and passonate to engage in. I apologize for bashing you and our relationship earlier, it wasn't nice and I know I hurt your feelings, even though I know the subject were something you needed to hear from me. I didn't make it easy, I'm sorry I don't know how to tell you how I feel without some pain involved, but afterall, we did have a rether abrupt and painfull breakup.. thanks to me. I just want a chance to talk to you real with out either of us looking at each other the say way we did, but more onbjectivley so we can say the things that really mean something. I left on a note that wasn't truly myself just to make you feel better about me breaking up with you. or perhaps I was just trying to make myself feel better about breaking up with you. I don't know, that's why I wish to talk to you about this. I am sorry for being so rash and hotheaded with your responses, and I will try not to intentionally inflict pain towards you. Please write me back just for my sake. I didn't know how to talk to you rationally back in the day, I respect you as a person and I find the idea of conversing with you today intriguing.
~xxx
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He tried again after this, but I just kept blocking them, without reading them. Now, the next question: Do you people want to see when he supposedly turned a new leaf and became less of an ass, or shall I leave you all with this sour taste in your mouths? Well... several months later, he tried again, but after one of his friends had convinced me to give him another chance. Maybe that is my problem in life, that I am too forgiving and too easily convinced to give another chance to the undeserving. Who knows. Oh well.. I guess I am simply not one to hold a grudge. I think overall, it makes me a better person than most you will find out there; those who would never speak to an ex again, even if the parting was not all that unfriendly. Those who think there can be no "friendship" after a break up. I suppose there can, and it honestly depends on the people involved, and the relationship they had. I think the ending of this one in particular was about as bad as they get, short of him having abused my physically or trying to kill me.
For those of you, pholks who read my journal, hoping for drama and flair, here you have it. In a large dose....