Weird Dream
I had a dream the other night that John came out here to visit friends or something (he lives in Colorado right now), and we ran into each other. He was nice to me. He wanted to actually hang out, and he was telling me about all these silly movies and comics and stuff he was making in his free time. He even had his little video camera with him, and was showing me clips from some of his movies.
Partly I didn't trust his overture of friendship, since he has spent so much time hating me since we broke up (even a little before we broke up!). But I am the kind of person who will try really hard to take you as you are now. Yes, past experience certainly colours the present, but when it comes to people and healing friendships, it seems better to give those second chances. I have mostly been able to stay friends with exes. Most likely I would never get back together with them in a deeper emotional relationship again, but how can it hurt to be friends with people? One way I look at it is that there was something about our personalities that attracted us to each other in the first place and it seems sad to completely discount that just because we couldn't make a romantic relationship work out.
I don't know.. people think I am weird or maybe not too smart for being friends with exes, but most of the people I have ever had a relationship with are pretty damn awesome, and why would I want to let that go from my life?
As bad as things could be with John, if he ever really did get over whatever it is that makes him think he needs to hate me, I would totally be friends with him. I don't really see that happening, but that's his problem. I'm an awesome friend. :)
Partly I didn't trust his overture of friendship, since he has spent so much time hating me since we broke up (even a little before we broke up!). But I am the kind of person who will try really hard to take you as you are now. Yes, past experience certainly colours the present, but when it comes to people and healing friendships, it seems better to give those second chances. I have mostly been able to stay friends with exes. Most likely I would never get back together with them in a deeper emotional relationship again, but how can it hurt to be friends with people? One way I look at it is that there was something about our personalities that attracted us to each other in the first place and it seems sad to completely discount that just because we couldn't make a romantic relationship work out.
I don't know.. people think I am weird or maybe not too smart for being friends with exes, but most of the people I have ever had a relationship with are pretty damn awesome, and why would I want to let that go from my life?
As bad as things could be with John, if he ever really did get over whatever it is that makes him think he needs to hate me, I would totally be friends with him. I don't really see that happening, but that's his problem. I'm an awesome friend. :)