i wish i could find my haku
eeeeep! i just finished watching the movie "Spirited Away" for the very first time! i'd meant to see it in the theatres since i really like Miyazaki, but i somehow ended up missing it. i LOVE it so much, though! it sent me through a maelstrom of different emotions and i even ended up getting teary-eyed at the end. i definetly recommend it to everyone who hasn't seen it yet. it was really good...i just wish i had someone of equal goodness to watch it with. *sniffle*
speaking of which, something very strange came over me the other day. while hanging out with one of my really close friends, a notion of attraction came over me, making me feel all queazy and tingly inside. i think i have feelings for my friend, despite how terrible i know the whole idea is. it would be a nightmare to profess my possible "feelings" only to get rejected, or even worse...to get my heart broken when we break up. then we probably wouldn't be friends anymore and the whole relationship would be ruined. the whole thing makes me feel really weird, but in the end all i see if a bunch of cons stacking much higher above a little tiny pile of pros. as much as my heart wants for me to tell, my head is telling me to keep quiet in order to prevent any future drama. *sigh*
i don't know...i'm very confused about the situation and i think that acting now would be irrational anyway. hopefully, with time, a decision will come easily to me, but for now...i'm hopeless. hopeless and confused.
now, forgetting my drama, it's either time for bed, or time for another movie. i haven't decided yet. ^_^
speaking of which, something very strange came over me the other day. while hanging out with one of my really close friends, a notion of attraction came over me, making me feel all queazy and tingly inside. i think i have feelings for my friend, despite how terrible i know the whole idea is. it would be a nightmare to profess my possible "feelings" only to get rejected, or even worse...to get my heart broken when we break up. then we probably wouldn't be friends anymore and the whole relationship would be ruined. the whole thing makes me feel really weird, but in the end all i see if a bunch of cons stacking much higher above a little tiny pile of pros. as much as my heart wants for me to tell, my head is telling me to keep quiet in order to prevent any future drama. *sigh*
i don't know...i'm very confused about the situation and i think that acting now would be irrational anyway. hopefully, with time, a decision will come easily to me, but for now...i'm hopeless. hopeless and confused.
now, forgetting my drama, it's either time for bed, or time for another movie. i haven't decided yet. ^_^