What the fuc*?
Okay, so January I cut all the strings. I finally make the big decision. I decide, basically to just make a choice. I've been on the fence too long I say. I don't want to start over. I don't want to learn someone else. I don't want to keep going through life alone. I will accept that final committment and hope that it produces all the happiness I've been telling myself it will produce.
And what the fuck?
I get it spit back into my face.
Sure I don't think he ever expected me to look.
I wasn't looking for anything, but now I wonder.
The seeds are planted.
I guess I'm getting what I've given so many times.
Yeah, I'm going to say something about it.
I'm going to find out what "the intended message" was in this case.
But basically, I find myself knowing the truth.
It'll just be a lesson on how to better conceal in the future.
It'll just be a lesson on how to better hide.
I've been lied to once I found out. The truth later shared.
I've made a karmic choice.
This karma is coming back during this life time.
What started out a most beautiful day, a day I felt was wonderful is ending with a crack in my heart.
Its ending in an infarct.
Do I really deserve any better I wonder aloud?
And what the fuck?
I get it spit back into my face.
Sure I don't think he ever expected me to look.
I wasn't looking for anything, but now I wonder.
The seeds are planted.
I guess I'm getting what I've given so many times.
Yeah, I'm going to say something about it.
I'm going to find out what "the intended message" was in this case.
But basically, I find myself knowing the truth.
It'll just be a lesson on how to better conceal in the future.
It'll just be a lesson on how to better hide.
I've been lied to once I found out. The truth later shared.
I've made a karmic choice.
This karma is coming back during this life time.
What started out a most beautiful day, a day I felt was wonderful is ending with a crack in my heart.
Its ending in an infarct.
Do I really deserve any better I wonder aloud?