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no, i don't believe in your god, the god you believe in is evil, why is there so much inequality, why did the cia assassinated che guevera, why are we trying to kill osama, they fought legitimate wars, i understand what they are standing against, i say that so i don't sound so egotistical when i say that god doesn't exist bc he/she has been unfair to me, i love someone who does not love me, i have given all i can but it isn't enough, now i just want to be friends but it doesn't seem to work, she will regret it when she grows up and realizes that i was not bad to her, no one will ever treat her like i did, but none of that matters bc im alone, i have no friends, i wish i didn't exist, i dont understand, i work, i go to school, im nice to people, i care about my family and former friends, i don't drink, smoke or do drugs, i never tried to hurt fatima, but nothing matters, i know that if i was attractive it would be different, if i looked like all the guys she thinks are hot then i would have something to work with, the truth is im fat, i have horrible teeth, i am just plain ugly, i see how easy attractive people have it and it isnt fair, you take a me and a hot guy and every girl would choose the hot guy, im not saying its any different for the opposite sex, im saying that this is what i have to deal with, im sorry that i have emotions, im sorry that im ugly, im sorry that im not mysterious, im sorry i don't ubercool like some of your friends, im sorry im not interested in all of the things you are, but i have been open minded (even if you dont realized it), im sorry that i have not done or been whatever it is you secretly desire, im going to die alone, but im not afraid of that, im afraid of dying without you