i am selfish
today was bad. i all ways hang with this kid at lunch an all he does is make fun of my weight and it is really starting to get to me so i went on a diet...then he was like blah blah eat....and im like no...then hes like why...? im like for 2 days you made fun of me for my weight im on a diet..i thought..giving a diet another chance...because i lost about 11 lbs in the beginning of the year...but then i met luke...and i went off my diet..wish i didnt though...so i was depressed the whole day till i went to gym and this girl was being a bitch and i went up to her and was like what up with the buffs....? and then she started telling me how her friend died 3 years ago and stuff...then it made me think about my best friend brian...see, about 2 years ago when i was in 7th he hung himself...i didnt tell anyone except for like 2 people...it still hurts me when i think about him but what am i going to do?well im right back into depression.fuck. i hate myself.