Wow.
Ok, few things I was not expecting:
1. That I'd be sick this bad for this long
and
2. That my family would actually be really supportive about me not wanting to leave the house and pretty much abandoning them. It really helps out to not have to worry that anyone will be mad at me for not seeing them or w/e.
And one thing that upset me which shouldn't ... Today Tom says he was talking to a neighbor and the neighbor says "Your girlfriend's pregnant right?... Well there's this hottie you could get some on the side"
!
I know Tom's not gonna go listen to him but come on! I'm not even big yet. I'm still the fuckin hottie around this trailer park! See not a hottie but THE hottie. Not like it's that hard around here. Idk why it upset me so much. It just makes it seem like I died or am uncapable of having sex. Tom gets it right here at home whether I'm pregnant or not. I figured that this guy's wife probably told him that you can't have sex while pregnant cuz he's so gross and she just didn't want to lol.
And I always read and hear about getting frustrated cuz you can't fit into your regular clothes but aren't big enough to fit into maternity clothes. Yea, I understand that now. I just look reallllly bloated. I got some maternity clothes and they're soooooo comfy but I look silly. I can't wait to be huge and just get in my comfy clothes. Only thing is I cannot find a bra for these fuckin 10 pound cantalopes lol.
Sorry this is all I talk about but at least I'm happy right?
Well we're pretty sure we aren't getting kicked out. Hopefully the park is gonna split the cost of the $1000 carpet we bought and we're gonna give the water heater with the missing piece back to them and buy a new one for the same price. We're also getting an electric one so we don't have to put in a gas line. God I can't wait for hot water in this place. It's been months. I can't wait to take a shower whenever I feel like it. I have a history of waking up in the middle of the night or early morning and taking a shower. If I feel dirty, I shower and not being able to do that ..... grrr!
Also Tom has some very good leads on some jobs!!!! I couldn't be happier about that.
It seems things are finally settling down for us.
I dreamt about the baby last night. It was a he. He was beautiful. But in the dream he spoke like an adult and looked about a year old even though he was born that day lol. Reminded me of Stewie.
Well I'm out now The Riches is on.
peace n love
p.s. I'm filling out stuff for school! Like, I'm actually doing it. I'm gonna get my bachelor's in criminal justice. Online. Iffffff I can afford it. Pray for me lol I need this.
p.p.s. If you know anyone in the Detroit area that wants a black kitten ... lemme know I need to get rid of these things.
1. That I'd be sick this bad for this long
and
2. That my family would actually be really supportive about me not wanting to leave the house and pretty much abandoning them. It really helps out to not have to worry that anyone will be mad at me for not seeing them or w/e.
And one thing that upset me which shouldn't ... Today Tom says he was talking to a neighbor and the neighbor says "Your girlfriend's pregnant right?... Well there's this hottie you could get some on the side"
!
I know Tom's not gonna go listen to him but come on! I'm not even big yet. I'm still the fuckin hottie around this trailer park! See not a hottie but THE hottie. Not like it's that hard around here. Idk why it upset me so much. It just makes it seem like I died or am uncapable of having sex. Tom gets it right here at home whether I'm pregnant or not. I figured that this guy's wife probably told him that you can't have sex while pregnant cuz he's so gross and she just didn't want to lol.
And I always read and hear about getting frustrated cuz you can't fit into your regular clothes but aren't big enough to fit into maternity clothes. Yea, I understand that now. I just look reallllly bloated. I got some maternity clothes and they're soooooo comfy but I look silly. I can't wait to be huge and just get in my comfy clothes. Only thing is I cannot find a bra for these fuckin 10 pound cantalopes lol.
Sorry this is all I talk about but at least I'm happy right?
Well we're pretty sure we aren't getting kicked out. Hopefully the park is gonna split the cost of the $1000 carpet we bought and we're gonna give the water heater with the missing piece back to them and buy a new one for the same price. We're also getting an electric one so we don't have to put in a gas line. God I can't wait for hot water in this place. It's been months. I can't wait to take a shower whenever I feel like it. I have a history of waking up in the middle of the night or early morning and taking a shower. If I feel dirty, I shower and not being able to do that ..... grrr!
Also Tom has some very good leads on some jobs!!!! I couldn't be happier about that.
It seems things are finally settling down for us.
I dreamt about the baby last night. It was a he. He was beautiful. But in the dream he spoke like an adult and looked about a year old even though he was born that day lol. Reminded me of Stewie.
Well I'm out now The Riches is on.
peace n love
p.s. I'm filling out stuff for school! Like, I'm actually doing it. I'm gonna get my bachelor's in criminal justice. Online. Iffffff I can afford it. Pray for me lol I need this.
p.p.s. If you know anyone in the Detroit area that wants a black kitten ... lemme know I need to get rid of these things.