Christmas
Not the best Christmas.
It became really apparent how limited Grandma has become when we couldn't get her out of the car today. So we had to drive her back home without her ever making it inside the house. We visited with her for a little bit, but she wasn't really all that well today.
Went back home, everyone napped. Had a very quiet Christmas, just me, mom and dad. [And Tia, who I think has gone back to hating me because she barks at me for no reason.]
Mom and I saw a thing on the news about volunteers at a homeless outreach center, and she said that she wants to do that next year. I have to say, I'd rather do that so much more than the fucked waste of a Christmas this was today. At least it wouldn't be so lonely.
I just felt like crying all day.
JC Christmas was fun yesterday, but it wasn't the same because my girls [the apprentices] have their own dressing room now, and I couldn't even hang out with them really. I don't know my place in the scheme of things at NJB anymore.
It became really apparent how limited Grandma has become when we couldn't get her out of the car today. So we had to drive her back home without her ever making it inside the house. We visited with her for a little bit, but she wasn't really all that well today.
Went back home, everyone napped. Had a very quiet Christmas, just me, mom and dad. [And Tia, who I think has gone back to hating me because she barks at me for no reason.]
Mom and I saw a thing on the news about volunteers at a homeless outreach center, and she said that she wants to do that next year. I have to say, I'd rather do that so much more than the fucked waste of a Christmas this was today. At least it wouldn't be so lonely.
I just felt like crying all day.
JC Christmas was fun yesterday, but it wasn't the same because my girls [the apprentices] have their own dressing room now, and I couldn't even hang out with them really. I don't know my place in the scheme of things at NJB anymore.