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Is it the beginning of the end? Next month I bite the bullet and meet Ellis in person on valentines day. I am chalk full of so many insecurities that I fear that once we meet all of our chemistry will be gone. Once we meet he will break up with me for the millions of things I am not. I try to be true to myself I really do but that hasn't worked out so well for me in the past. I don't want another repeat of Bien.