if i'm a writer, and i'm a poet, i might love you but never show it
I have tons of emotions running through my head right now, and I don't know how to describe it. I've been in a weird state of mind the past couple of days, i'm not really that happy, but i'm not sad either.
One Word, regret.
We all live with some form of regret, and mine has just been eatting at me more and more lately. I wanted to be different, but I exemplified the exact opposite of everything I ever wanted to be.
I'm sorry, everyday i'm sorry for what i've done. I hate myself for it, and if I could go back, things would have definately been done differently. Of course, our hindsight is always 20/20.
I just hate myself sometimes. I know it's helped mold me into who I am today, but it sucks that it had to be her to go through it with me. She never deserved it, and all i'll ever be able to do is apologize for it.
Maybe that's it, maybe it's because I know I have fucked up royally in the past, and i'll never have a chance to make things right again. I guess that might have something to do with it. I've got time to think about things, and i'll never have the chance to rectify myself.
All I can do is make sure I never repeat my past actions. I've finally got my head on straight, it's just a damn shame it's taken soo long for me to realize these things. I'll never let myself do those things again, no one deserves it.
I'm sorry..
all my love,
brian james
One Word, regret.
We all live with some form of regret, and mine has just been eatting at me more and more lately. I wanted to be different, but I exemplified the exact opposite of everything I ever wanted to be.
I'm sorry, everyday i'm sorry for what i've done. I hate myself for it, and if I could go back, things would have definately been done differently. Of course, our hindsight is always 20/20.
I just hate myself sometimes. I know it's helped mold me into who I am today, but it sucks that it had to be her to go through it with me. She never deserved it, and all i'll ever be able to do is apologize for it.
Maybe that's it, maybe it's because I know I have fucked up royally in the past, and i'll never have a chance to make things right again. I guess that might have something to do with it. I've got time to think about things, and i'll never have the chance to rectify myself.
All I can do is make sure I never repeat my past actions. I've finally got my head on straight, it's just a damn shame it's taken soo long for me to realize these things. I'll never let myself do those things again, no one deserves it.
I'm sorry..
all my love,
brian james