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internet is running slow as fuck, as usual. just stop leeching the fucking bandwidth, you fuckers!
i forgot how unpleasant it is to run into ed in the morning now. i'm genuinely upset that we're not friends any more, but it seems a bit late to do anything about it. the thing with ed is, i can see myself trying to talk to him about why he stopped speaking to me in april, trying to fix things, and i can see him just shrugging and telling me to fuck off, basically. and i don't think i could deal with that. i'd rather just leave it than have to deal with knowing that he just doesnt care. which is why i left it back then. and now it's too late.
i just miss him sometimes, is all.
*hugs* to casp. ty, hun. dont feel like i helped at all, but u helped me.
i forgot how unpleasant it is to run into ed in the morning now. i'm genuinely upset that we're not friends any more, but it seems a bit late to do anything about it. the thing with ed is, i can see myself trying to talk to him about why he stopped speaking to me in april, trying to fix things, and i can see him just shrugging and telling me to fuck off, basically. and i don't think i could deal with that. i'd rather just leave it than have to deal with knowing that he just doesnt care. which is why i left it back then. and now it's too late.
i just miss him sometimes, is all.
*hugs* to casp. ty, hun. dont feel like i helped at all, but u helped me.