i'm only me when i'm with you
So today was a very frustrating day. It was only the first period of the day but halfway through the class I started to get really frustrated (how else to describe this swelling of emotion?) so I.. uhh... 'missed out' on my 2nd period class to go take a walk around campus and cool down. Sitting under some trees and enjoying the sunshine, I think I realized all the stress is building up again and I'm getting more and more restless >__< I've finally gotten to A class in the IJL program and now that I'm here, it's like... what next? I'm about to return to UBC within a couple months and when I go back, I'm deathly scared that I'll forget all the Japanese I learned here D: However, the JLPT is around the corner and if I don't buckle down and study, I will fail hard >3< It's not that A class is especially hard, but I'm really starting to wonder where all my motivation went for this term...
In any case, I only have roughly 3 months left to enjoy my time here and hopefully I'll make the best of it. I will brutally honestly say I only semi-look forward to going back to Vancouver, but I really do miss everyone and wouldn't mind getting back to finishing my degree. The JWP classes in the program are not really... enriching and I only recently realized I'm dismayed at the fact that I've missed out on classes where I actually learn something (reading through the Political Science 2011 course guide made me DROOL), though I'm also scared that my English level has just plummeted and I won't be able to write all those lovely 20 page essays when I get back. DOOOOOOM.
Recently I've also started thinking more about my future after UBC (but then again, when am I not?) and I realize I really, really want to travel (though my parents won't be pleased to hear that). So, I'm starting to look at my options ie. working holiday visa in other countries or maybe I'll go to South Korea or Japan to teach English (though I really don't like it) or do an internship in some European country, hopefully in an area that's relevant to my degree. Next adventure... Germany or the Netherlands? :D Wheee the thought excites me.
Luckily enough we're all going to an onsen resort this weekend, so I positively absolutely can't wait to board the train and get there and see the ocean and jump in an outdoor onsen and set off some fireworks and just relaaax before midterms and presentations come.
Just. Relax.
In any case, I only have roughly 3 months left to enjoy my time here and hopefully I'll make the best of it. I will brutally honestly say I only semi-look forward to going back to Vancouver, but I really do miss everyone and wouldn't mind getting back to finishing my degree. The JWP classes in the program are not really... enriching and I only recently realized I'm dismayed at the fact that I've missed out on classes where I actually learn something (reading through the Political Science 2011 course guide made me DROOL), though I'm also scared that my English level has just plummeted and I won't be able to write all those lovely 20 page essays when I get back. DOOOOOOM.
Recently I've also started thinking more about my future after UBC (but then again, when am I not?) and I realize I really, really want to travel (though my parents won't be pleased to hear that). So, I'm starting to look at my options ie. working holiday visa in other countries or maybe I'll go to South Korea or Japan to teach English (though I really don't like it) or do an internship in some European country, hopefully in an area that's relevant to my degree. Next adventure... Germany or the Netherlands? :D Wheee the thought excites me.
Luckily enough we're all going to an onsen resort this weekend, so I positively absolutely can't wait to board the train and get there and see the ocean and jump in an outdoor onsen and set off some fireworks and just relaaax before midterms and presentations come.
Just. Relax.