Never thought it would be like this
You know in Titanic where Kate Winslet (Rose) is talking about how she feels like she's in the middle of a crowded room screaming and no one is listening? That's where life is taking me and I don't like it.
My family is falling apart. Not my immediate (mom, dad, brother) family, but the next ring consisting of aunts, uncles, and grandparents. Things have never been great between my aunts Melissa and Nicolle since Kylie was about 1. They got into it and more or less tolerate each other. Then she had Braden, and things got much worse. They let the kids spend time together (thank God they're not that stupid), but they pretty much don't talk. The same goes for Melissa and my uncle Ross. That one goes back to some big hunting blow-up involving my uncle Bryan (Melissa's husband). The last sibling on my mom's side, my aunt Noelle...well, she's always been kind of...different. She has her life and doesn't say a lot. Melissa and Bryan didn't go to my grandparent's house for Father's Day. Why? Because we're the only ones that talk to her. How fucking ridiculous is that? Life is to damn short for them to be acting this fucking foolish. I am so sick of it. God.
I also was told that Ross and Amber, who have always been like older siblings to me as opposed to the uncle and aunt they are, are trying to move back to Shawano. So once again, my family will be secluded in Wausau. No more nights playing cards, making dinner, bullshitting, and all the things that we did at random. I know I'm not home for those things, so theoretically some would say it wouldn't affect me that much. But when I am home, we spend time together. And now, with them leaving, I'll be lucky to see my extended family a few times a year.
And then I found out today on my dad's side, my Grandpa has continued to have flings. He got caught at Christmas (talk about a great way to spend the holidays) and we thought he'd learn. Apparently not. Because I was talking to my mom this morning and it looks like he found someone else to canoodle with. This is apparently nothing new for him either. So, after he heals from his hip replacement (which was yesterday) my step-grandma is making him sell the house and they're moving to Mayville, where she is from. So basically, I'm not going to see them. Great. Thanks for not only affecting you and your life, but also that of your son and grandkids.
The one thing that has always been a constant in my life is no longer a constant, and I don't know how to deal with that. I never thought anything like this would happen to me. Why?
My family is falling apart. Not my immediate (mom, dad, brother) family, but the next ring consisting of aunts, uncles, and grandparents. Things have never been great between my aunts Melissa and Nicolle since Kylie was about 1. They got into it and more or less tolerate each other. Then she had Braden, and things got much worse. They let the kids spend time together (thank God they're not that stupid), but they pretty much don't talk. The same goes for Melissa and my uncle Ross. That one goes back to some big hunting blow-up involving my uncle Bryan (Melissa's husband). The last sibling on my mom's side, my aunt Noelle...well, she's always been kind of...different. She has her life and doesn't say a lot. Melissa and Bryan didn't go to my grandparent's house for Father's Day. Why? Because we're the only ones that talk to her. How fucking ridiculous is that? Life is to damn short for them to be acting this fucking foolish. I am so sick of it. God.
I also was told that Ross and Amber, who have always been like older siblings to me as opposed to the uncle and aunt they are, are trying to move back to Shawano. So once again, my family will be secluded in Wausau. No more nights playing cards, making dinner, bullshitting, and all the things that we did at random. I know I'm not home for those things, so theoretically some would say it wouldn't affect me that much. But when I am home, we spend time together. And now, with them leaving, I'll be lucky to see my extended family a few times a year.
And then I found out today on my dad's side, my Grandpa has continued to have flings. He got caught at Christmas (talk about a great way to spend the holidays) and we thought he'd learn. Apparently not. Because I was talking to my mom this morning and it looks like he found someone else to canoodle with. This is apparently nothing new for him either. So, after he heals from his hip replacement (which was yesterday) my step-grandma is making him sell the house and they're moving to Mayville, where she is from. So basically, I'm not going to see them. Great. Thanks for not only affecting you and your life, but also that of your son and grandkids.
The one thing that has always been a constant in my life is no longer a constant, and I don't know how to deal with that. I never thought anything like this would happen to me. Why?