You Don't Know Me. You Can't See Me. You Don't Want To Hear The Words I'm Sayin'
The cut below is filled with me being all angsty, bitchy and blah (I apologize in advance yo). Basically you get to know me better and realize how wrong that image of me you originally had is. So if you don't want none of it and want to be blissfully oblivious, don't read it so that means all of you.
( Yes we wear our masks. We keep them quite intact. And we don't want to know what's behind those faces. We harbor and conceal... )
( Yes we wear our masks. We keep them quite intact. And we don't want to know what's behind those faces. We harbor and conceal... )
They weren't necessarily rules. More like suggestions/statements. *cough* They sounded completely like rules. I did not intended it to be that way at all. You can imagine how it came out of my mouth. I really have to stop making you worry. Apparently this is something I do very often to people XD Please don't worry about it or me. I'm not worth it at all. I understand that you are busy and everything. I hope everything is alright with you much much more Kiku.
This has been one of the things I've been thinking about lately as well. Honestly, most people I know tend to give the whole "how can I consider it?" excuse or "how am I suppose to know?" when for some of them, in my opinion, it's common sense. Lately, I've been really observant with how people act and portray themselves. Good or bad. Not just the ones involved with me at this very moment but also the ones who were who are now in the past. Perhaps I'm being too judgmental. I agree. I've also been sad over how some situations and actions can be so incomprehensible and wrong yet are played out anyway in our world today.
I thought it was the complete opposite. You know, not coherent and confrontative. At least or should I say especially the latter. It's something I have to work on. I'm very much aware of that. I think we all could. It's just these things have been done repeatedly so damn much that I just had to write it out because saying them doesn't seem to do the trick. Exactly. But I guess not for some.
I'm sure you know that I too enjoy our conversations. Hey, you have to be doing something right to have me there for hours until the early morning. XD And I saw that recent pic of yasu with his awesome new black hair and all I have to say is oh god yes... *obligatory yasu comment*
Hee. I can be even more so. I'm pretty sure I kill you and my wife-ies LJs with my long ass comments. You have nothing to apologize for m'dear. ♥
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I've been feeling the same way, lately; I've been finding that I've been more and more aware about how the people who consider themselves close to me actually portray themselves, and with one person in particular, I'm finding that she's entirely different from who I thought she was in a very distressing way. I always like to believe in the best in people, but sometimes people themselves make that hard.
I didn't read much confrontation in your post at all, at least not directed toward those who were reading it; perhaps because you and I tend to get into somewhat of the same mental state when we're upset enough about something that we feel the need to write about it like this.
Obligatory response moment: OH MY GOD I KNOW IS YASU NOT COMPLETE AND TOTAL SEX ♥ ♥ ♥ I swear, the man is out to make sure that I never have an actual relationship ever. XDDD Sign me up for that shit, goddamn.
Anyway, hope to see you around AIM one of these days! Loves~ ♥
(yasu's right, this heart thing is pretty awesome ♥ ♥ ♥ especially when you've just copied it and are hitting ctrl+v a bunch of times ♥ ♥)
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