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[lena_the_geek]

i wish i had complete control over my emotions. it seems as though every time i talk to him i have no control over any of my actions. why did he have to sound so cheerful and happy? why did i have to go and cry like that? he can always tell when something is wrong but i still deny it . . . hmmm. i guess i have to wait until sunday to see him. that is sooo long. i feel like a lost kid.

i just want to sleep for a really, really long time . . .