Time is gonna change my mind
Things are not getting better, although I'm trying - I swear - to think positive.
Another week is gone and I'm still at the same point.
At University, I can't even think to compete with the others. I'm not a half smart as they are.
My parents are sick of seeing me so upset and I'm feeling six feet under for it.
I don't know what to do.
After lunch I talked with Ottavio, my best friend, and he told me that I must forget all my psychological disorder 'cause I'm going over the top.
For the very first time, I'm not comforted at all by his words.
I'm feeling so stupid.
The thing is that I've been living in a false golden world since now. I mean, I got the higher mark in my high school exams and I was very proud of it. As a consequence, I got more reasons to think that I can study and that I am somebody, but now, now that I've opened my eyes, reality is far different from the one I used to know.
What's happening to me? Was all a stupid illusion?
I don't understand. It seems like all my certainties are crashing down without rest.
And I don't feel the ground under my feet anymore.
Lena
Another week is gone and I'm still at the same point.
At University, I can't even think to compete with the others. I'm not a half smart as they are.
My parents are sick of seeing me so upset and I'm feeling six feet under for it.
I don't know what to do.
After lunch I talked with Ottavio, my best friend, and he told me that I must forget all my psychological disorder 'cause I'm going over the top.
For the very first time, I'm not comforted at all by his words.
I'm feeling so stupid.
The thing is that I've been living in a false golden world since now. I mean, I got the higher mark in my high school exams and I was very proud of it. As a consequence, I got more reasons to think that I can study and that I am somebody, but now, now that I've opened my eyes, reality is far different from the one I used to know.
What's happening to me? Was all a stupid illusion?
I don't understand. It seems like all my certainties are crashing down without rest.
And I don't feel the ground under my feet anymore.
Lena