sangin'
i need a voice lesson. i haven't had one in over a month and my technique is all over the place--it's awful. i don't even enjoy practicing, i can just feel that it's all wrong. it's so upsetting because i KNOW i'm singing from my throat and i keep using every method i know to fix that, but it's not really helping, and i know i'm singing too heavily but also can't fix that and i don't know what else to do.
i saw kiri te kanawa at wolf trap today-she's a famous as haaayyeelll soprano from new zealand. i have some recordings of her in various opera roles, and tonight she was really, really good. i really enjoy listening to professionals, but at the same time i always leave feeling really withdrawn and pensive. i just want to get to that stage of vocal development so badly, and i don't see it happening any time soon and it's so goddamn frustrating! i was reading kiri te kanawa's biography and it said that she had won all the major prizes for voice in the south pacific by the time she was 20. i'll be 19 in a few weeks and what have i done? i sang some puccini once. i mean, obviously she's an exceptional case, but i just hate that even after i've been taking lessons for 7 years, i STILL am falling back on bad habits and STILL can't seem to handle the strength of my voice.
thankfully, i'm seeing mr. taylor on sunday and i can pour out all these woes to him, haha, and he'll actually be able to help me. i just hate that i need constant aid from a teacher to keep myself on track--haley, richard, lindsay...everyone else can do it themselves, but i just seem to fall the fuck apart! i hate it! why can't i internalize everything and manage to keep it together when i'm left to my own devices?! fuck, man
i saw kiri te kanawa at wolf trap today-she's a famous as haaayyeelll soprano from new zealand. i have some recordings of her in various opera roles, and tonight she was really, really good. i really enjoy listening to professionals, but at the same time i always leave feeling really withdrawn and pensive. i just want to get to that stage of vocal development so badly, and i don't see it happening any time soon and it's so goddamn frustrating! i was reading kiri te kanawa's biography and it said that she had won all the major prizes for voice in the south pacific by the time she was 20. i'll be 19 in a few weeks and what have i done? i sang some puccini once. i mean, obviously she's an exceptional case, but i just hate that even after i've been taking lessons for 7 years, i STILL am falling back on bad habits and STILL can't seem to handle the strength of my voice.
thankfully, i'm seeing mr. taylor on sunday and i can pour out all these woes to him, haha, and he'll actually be able to help me. i just hate that i need constant aid from a teacher to keep myself on track--haley, richard, lindsay...everyone else can do it themselves, but i just seem to fall the fuck apart! i hate it! why can't i internalize everything and manage to keep it together when i'm left to my own devices?! fuck, man