Reflective Thoughts
I don’t know what it is about the coming of spring that makes me thoughtful, makes me stop and think about everything in my life, past, present, and future. Maybe it’s the thought of a school year coming close to its conclusion, which leads to thoughts about summer and how I’m going to attempt to be useful with my time during those months. (I found out last week that I got a job with CYO Girls Camp, a camp run by the Archdiocese of Detroit, for the summer. So I’ll be a bit more useful this summer than in the past.)
Spring is a time for new beginnings in the natural world, but in our school world it’s a time for concluding, and in college the time we all spend together on campus comes to an end. It’s kind of sad really. The weather gets warm and beautiful and we all get to have fun in it for a little while and then we have to say goodbye to each other for the summer. Kind of ironic if you ask me. I’ve never liked endings, I much prefer new beginnings. (Hence the reason fall is my favorite season. I like the promise of a new school year.)
I tend to get a little reflective in the spring for some reason, one effect that warm weather has on me. One of those times when I feel as if I have to stop and think about how I spent the last year of my life. I remember last spring, the anxiety I often felt, the struggles I brought upon myself. I learned a harsh lesson at the end of last year, a lesson of patience and trust in God and myself that I will never forget. And God rewarded my determination to learn his lesson bringing me a sense of contentment and even extraordinary joy this school year as wonderful as anything I could have imagined. My life isn’t easy by any means (hehe, sometimes I still think I’m crazy for taking 17 credits. Oh, well. I’ll be thanking myself for it senior year.) but at least my life makes sense now, most of the time.
I think this might finally be the year where I don’t feel frustrated or anxious during the spring. I think for the first time I can truly expect to find ways to enjoy every day and that is a wonderful feeling. And when the summer comes I will be ready to hold my head high and face whatever challenges those months will bring. :)
On a sadder note I found out yesterday that the little baby boy of one of my high school teachers passed away. Mr. Bonner and his wife Andrea were both staff members for the marching band at Novi so I knew them very well. Their son was only a couple days old when he suddenly stopped breathing and died. I can’t even imagine the pain they must be feeling right now. This was definitely some of the saddest news I had ever heard. It’s one of those times when I feel incredibly humbled in my own existence. My own daily struggles at their worst are truly nothing compared to something like this. My heart definitely goes out to Lee and Andrea Bonner right now, two wonderful people who don’t deserve something like this to happen to them. I pray that God be with them during this difficult time.
RIP Nathan Michael Bonner
Spring is a time for new beginnings in the natural world, but in our school world it’s a time for concluding, and in college the time we all spend together on campus comes to an end. It’s kind of sad really. The weather gets warm and beautiful and we all get to have fun in it for a little while and then we have to say goodbye to each other for the summer. Kind of ironic if you ask me. I’ve never liked endings, I much prefer new beginnings. (Hence the reason fall is my favorite season. I like the promise of a new school year.)
I tend to get a little reflective in the spring for some reason, one effect that warm weather has on me. One of those times when I feel as if I have to stop and think about how I spent the last year of my life. I remember last spring, the anxiety I often felt, the struggles I brought upon myself. I learned a harsh lesson at the end of last year, a lesson of patience and trust in God and myself that I will never forget. And God rewarded my determination to learn his lesson bringing me a sense of contentment and even extraordinary joy this school year as wonderful as anything I could have imagined. My life isn’t easy by any means (hehe, sometimes I still think I’m crazy for taking 17 credits. Oh, well. I’ll be thanking myself for it senior year.) but at least my life makes sense now, most of the time.
I think this might finally be the year where I don’t feel frustrated or anxious during the spring. I think for the first time I can truly expect to find ways to enjoy every day and that is a wonderful feeling. And when the summer comes I will be ready to hold my head high and face whatever challenges those months will bring. :)
On a sadder note I found out yesterday that the little baby boy of one of my high school teachers passed away. Mr. Bonner and his wife Andrea were both staff members for the marching band at Novi so I knew them very well. Their son was only a couple days old when he suddenly stopped breathing and died. I can’t even imagine the pain they must be feeling right now. This was definitely some of the saddest news I had ever heard. It’s one of those times when I feel incredibly humbled in my own existence. My own daily struggles at their worst are truly nothing compared to something like this. My heart definitely goes out to Lee and Andrea Bonner right now, two wonderful people who don’t deserve something like this to happen to them. I pray that God be with them during this difficult time.
RIP Nathan Michael Bonner