i guess i was just a day early
i have decided that my life is filled with a cylce of natural highs. yesterday, for example, to use "stoner terminology," i was blazed out of my mind. i just found my happy place... everything seemed so wonderful and i had the notion that nothing could bring me down. MEAPS were a joke obviously, and french and ceramics were enjoyable as usual. lunch out on the patio with paula was fabulous, and english was sooo helpful. a decent school day at this point is a spectacular gift (school is just going to be hell until after may 13), but it just got better from there. my parents seem to respect me again, and they actually said they were proud of me. that was the first time that's happened in... hmm i can't remember the last time that happened. yoga was wonderful, and i came to the realization that "hey, leah, you WILL get into college." this is a good thought to have... trust me.
PS: i loved watching the storm out of my open window last night. sooo peaceful.
however, today, i am "coming down." the weather is sort of gross, although i still drive with my windows all the way down, and school was pretty terrible. i often feel as if i'm putting on a happy face, even though i'm just seething on the inside. today, i just felt blah... everything was so drab. staff appreciation was early and the whole day was spent in a daze. the wonderful news from yesterday seems as far away as the shining sun. ahhh plus, when the weather gets bad out, i just sit in my house and eat. then i get into a worse mood, and it's just sooo irritating.
oh well, all i want to know is this: why can't i just be normal and get "high" on 4-20, just like everybody else? i guess my high came too soon.
PS: i loved watching the storm out of my open window last night. sooo peaceful.
however, today, i am "coming down." the weather is sort of gross, although i still drive with my windows all the way down, and school was pretty terrible. i often feel as if i'm putting on a happy face, even though i'm just seething on the inside. today, i just felt blah... everything was so drab. staff appreciation was early and the whole day was spent in a daze. the wonderful news from yesterday seems as far away as the shining sun. ahhh plus, when the weather gets bad out, i just sit in my house and eat. then i get into a worse mood, and it's just sooo irritating.
oh well, all i want to know is this: why can't i just be normal and get "high" on 4-20, just like everybody else? i guess my high came too soon.