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Anxiety seems to be worming its way back into taking control.
I had a massive anxiety attack this morning for no reason at all, as they mostly are, and I was so convinced I was going to pass out I called my mum and asked her to come and get me as I was on my own at Graeme's. Having got off the phone I calmed down a bit at the thought of someone coming, I then realised how stupid I'd been and then the crying started. She called a few minutes later, probably realising that I would have felt better, and she did still come and get me but not instantly, as she wasn't even dressed yet.
Yeah, so there was that.
Now, I've been having de ja vu A LOT lately. Most people may have one maybe 2 de ja vus a year, or even in their lifetime, some people never have it. I've had it everyday, sometime as much as 3 times a day. This has been going on for the past 2 weeks at least, I've really noticed it since then anyway. It's HORRIBLE. Every time it happens, it' not like "oh hey, de ja vu!" It's more like "this means I'm going to die, that's it, i'm going to die, i'm going to die" and, of course, it's over and I'm not dead. But, EVERY TIME I am CONVINCED I'm going to die. They're getting longer as well, at first it would be a few seconds, today I had one for about 2-3 minutes. I am putting it down to anxiety because it is a symptom and I have read about lots of people having it and having similar feelings at the time. The only other thing it could possibly be is Temporal Lobe Epilepsy. The seizures that people with TLE experience are de ja vu. They extremely rarely have anything worse or a fit. As far as I can tell if I did have TLE there's not a lot they can do about it but put you on a medication and I guess give me an epi-pen incase I ever did have a fit. I'm going to see how this de ja vu thing goes. If it goes on for much longer I may go to a doctor to see if they will test me for TLE just in case. Of course, as soon as I read about this I thought I must have it, but that's the anxiety kicking in, and I've calmed down about it and now am since sure it is just my anxiety, but it would be nice to be on the safe side.
I had a massive anxiety attack this morning for no reason at all, as they mostly are, and I was so convinced I was going to pass out I called my mum and asked her to come and get me as I was on my own at Graeme's. Having got off the phone I calmed down a bit at the thought of someone coming, I then realised how stupid I'd been and then the crying started. She called a few minutes later, probably realising that I would have felt better, and she did still come and get me but not instantly, as she wasn't even dressed yet.
Yeah, so there was that.
Now, I've been having de ja vu A LOT lately. Most people may have one maybe 2 de ja vus a year, or even in their lifetime, some people never have it. I've had it everyday, sometime as much as 3 times a day. This has been going on for the past 2 weeks at least, I've really noticed it since then anyway. It's HORRIBLE. Every time it happens, it' not like "oh hey, de ja vu!" It's more like "this means I'm going to die, that's it, i'm going to die, i'm going to die" and, of course, it's over and I'm not dead. But, EVERY TIME I am CONVINCED I'm going to die. They're getting longer as well, at first it would be a few seconds, today I had one for about 2-3 minutes. I am putting it down to anxiety because it is a symptom and I have read about lots of people having it and having similar feelings at the time. The only other thing it could possibly be is Temporal Lobe Epilepsy. The seizures that people with TLE experience are de ja vu. They extremely rarely have anything worse or a fit. As far as I can tell if I did have TLE there's not a lot they can do about it but put you on a medication and I guess give me an epi-pen incase I ever did have a fit. I'm going to see how this de ja vu thing goes. If it goes on for much longer I may go to a doctor to see if they will test me for TLE just in case. Of course, as soon as I read about this I thought I must have it, but that's the anxiety kicking in, and I've calmed down about it and now am since sure it is just my anxiety, but it would be nice to be on the safe side.