i won't worry my life away
As I was driving home from Cranberry the other night, belting Streetlight Manifesto songs, I realized something:
I'm happy.
If someone had asked me seven months ago where I'd be today, I probably would have said, "At school in Pittsburgh, single... and happy." After Rob and I broke up, I started planning my transfer to the University of Pittsburgh. I was set. I would be out of Orlando and out of my slump. I had no idea the curveball that life was about to throw me.
Over the next four months, Rob and I worked all of our problems out, my parents and I were barely on speaking terms, and I had to make one of the most difficult decisions of my life: stay in Florida with no help from my parents or move back to Pittsburgh and lose one of the most important people in my life.
You grow up pretty quickly when faced with a decision like that. My parents had been my support system my whole life. Nearly every decision I had made before then had been based on what they wanted me to do, and that's all I was used to. After a lot of time - a lot of thinking, and even more crying - I made a decision based on what I wanted.
Sidenote: I'm completely aware that most - maybe all - of you don't care about any of this. But I also don't care. This is my place to write. And you don't have to read. But if you've made it this far, thank you for caring.
Anyways. I chose to move permanently to Fort Myers at the end of the summer regardless of whether or not I had my parents support. I would go to school after I gained residency. I had everything prepared. Or at least I thought I did.
Last month, I was faced with one more decision. My parents asked me to stay in Pittsburgh through the Christmas season - with one week off every month to visit Rob. If I did that, they would pay for me to go to school after I declared residency. So, after discussing it with Rob, I agreed.
Then last week Rob proposed. Everything in my life is finally falling into place. I have a fiancé, I have a home in Florida, I have a job until January, the relationship with my parents has improved 100%, and I no longer have to worry about struggling to pay for school.
I'm so happy with the way everything is going right now, and I only see it getting better.
It's not often that I'm optimistic, and I'm thoroughly enjoying every minute of it.
Mitch, Sarah, & Malu: You are my favorites. I don't even want to think about what I would have done without you through all of this. Love.
Rob: I love you. Thank you for being there through every decision and every tear, and for making my life better than I ever could have imagined.
♥ ♥ ♥
I'm happy.
If someone had asked me seven months ago where I'd be today, I probably would have said, "At school in Pittsburgh, single... and happy." After Rob and I broke up, I started planning my transfer to the University of Pittsburgh. I was set. I would be out of Orlando and out of my slump. I had no idea the curveball that life was about to throw me.
Over the next four months, Rob and I worked all of our problems out, my parents and I were barely on speaking terms, and I had to make one of the most difficult decisions of my life: stay in Florida with no help from my parents or move back to Pittsburgh and lose one of the most important people in my life.
You grow up pretty quickly when faced with a decision like that. My parents had been my support system my whole life. Nearly every decision I had made before then had been based on what they wanted me to do, and that's all I was used to. After a lot of time - a lot of thinking, and even more crying - I made a decision based on what I wanted.
Sidenote: I'm completely aware that most - maybe all - of you don't care about any of this. But I also don't care. This is my place to write. And you don't have to read. But if you've made it this far, thank you for caring.
Anyways. I chose to move permanently to Fort Myers at the end of the summer regardless of whether or not I had my parents support. I would go to school after I gained residency. I had everything prepared. Or at least I thought I did.
Last month, I was faced with one more decision. My parents asked me to stay in Pittsburgh through the Christmas season - with one week off every month to visit Rob. If I did that, they would pay for me to go to school after I declared residency. So, after discussing it with Rob, I agreed.
Then last week Rob proposed. Everything in my life is finally falling into place. I have a fiancé, I have a home in Florida, I have a job until January, the relationship with my parents has improved 100%, and I no longer have to worry about struggling to pay for school.
I'm so happy with the way everything is going right now, and I only see it getting better.
It's not often that I'm optimistic, and I'm thoroughly enjoying every minute of it.
Mitch, Sarah, & Malu: You are my favorites. I don't even want to think about what I would have done without you through all of this. Love.
Rob: I love you. Thank you for being there through every decision and every tear, and for making my life better than I ever could have imagined.
♥ ♥ ♥