new year's resolutions...
I wasn't going to make any resolution this year. I always pick one big thing that ultimately becomes too much for me to handle, and I end up hating myself for it. I finally realized the other day, while in deep discussion with Maxwell, that it doesn't have to be that way. We were talking about changes we'd like to begin making within ourselves, and as I rattled off change after change, I realized that I already had a ton of "resolutions". Some are simple, some will be more difficult, but they're all manageable.
I've decided that it's time for me to start focusing on myself. I need to make changes for me; because I want to make them. If I'm not happy with myself, then no one around me will be happy either. I don't want to make decisions based on what I think other people want me to do anymore. I don't know why I ever stopped thinking that I don't deserve to be happy, but it is time for me to do a complete 180.
So here is what I want to do in 2006...
♥ I want to make a schedule and stick to it.
♥ I want to get a job... that I enjoy.
♥ I want to lose weight, but not set an unachievable goal.
♥ I want to do exceptionally well in school.
♥ I want to get a tattoo and a new piercing.
♥ I want to read at least one new book every month.
♥ I want to write poetry again.
♥ I want to go to Church every week.
♥ I want to read the Bible.
♥ I want to be less obsessive about things that don't matter and more obsessive about things that do.
♥ I want to stop being afraid of everything.
♥ I want to forgive those who have hurt me.
♥ I want to let go of the past.
♥ I want to forgive myself.
♥ I want to start rebuilding my self-esteem.
♥ I want to stop letting what other people think of me determine what I think of me.
♥ I want to let myself be happy.
I know that I will probably make mistakes regarding these, and that some of them may not even continue on throughout the whole year. That's ok. I'll be happy with myself as long as I touch on all of them, and take care of the ones that are most important to my health and happiness. I'm already proud of myself for coming to some of the realizations I have as of late, so it's already a good start. It's going to be a good year because I'm going to make it one.
"People are only as happy as they choose to be."
-Abraham Lincoln
I've decided that it's time for me to start focusing on myself. I need to make changes for me; because I want to make them. If I'm not happy with myself, then no one around me will be happy either. I don't want to make decisions based on what I think other people want me to do anymore. I don't know why I ever stopped thinking that I don't deserve to be happy, but it is time for me to do a complete 180.
So here is what I want to do in 2006...
♥ I want to make a schedule and stick to it.
♥ I want to get a job... that I enjoy.
♥ I want to lose weight, but not set an unachievable goal.
♥ I want to do exceptionally well in school.
♥ I want to get a tattoo and a new piercing.
♥ I want to read at least one new book every month.
♥ I want to write poetry again.
♥ I want to go to Church every week.
♥ I want to read the Bible.
♥ I want to be less obsessive about things that don't matter and more obsessive about things that do.
♥ I want to stop being afraid of everything.
♥ I want to forgive those who have hurt me.
♥ I want to let go of the past.
♥ I want to forgive myself.
♥ I want to start rebuilding my self-esteem.
♥ I want to stop letting what other people think of me determine what I think of me.
♥ I want to let myself be happy.
I know that I will probably make mistakes regarding these, and that some of them may not even continue on throughout the whole year. That's ok. I'll be happy with myself as long as I touch on all of them, and take care of the ones that are most important to my health and happiness. I'm already proud of myself for coming to some of the realizations I have as of late, so it's already a good start. It's going to be a good year because I'm going to make it one.
"People are only as happy as they choose to be."
-Abraham Lincoln