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My grandfather died on thursday. I wish i could verbalize how i feel in some sort of long drawn out entry but I can't. I'm just sort of numb and depressed. The funeral was hard to comprehend, the idea of him being in this wooden box in the middle of a room that everyone was staring at was just surreal. The idea of him not being at thanksgiving is heartbreaking, he's never not been there. I'm not generally a sad person, so i'm not really handling this well at all. I am usually the person that cheers other people up with humor or sarcasm and this is so not the time for that or what any of my family wants to hear.