001. Freefall, Eeteuk/Kangin
100 Super Junior Fics
Started: 12/12/07
Completed: 1/100
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001. Freefall, Eeteuk/Kangin
Warnings: Angst and Fluff (my fortes ^.^), mentions of character death, cutting, drugs, alcohol abuse.
Authors Note: This is my first super junior fic EVER! Tell me what you think! Sorry for bad spelling >.<~!
Kangin stumbled into the bathroom, slamming the door and locking it shut before sliding down against the heavy wood. His expression was cloudy and he didn't speak a word. He just lay there propped up against the door with his legs sprawled on the cold tile.
He took a swig of vodka from his almost empty bottle, clutched tightly in his left hand. The strong liquor burnt his throat and he swallowed slowly, secretly enjoying the pain. Kangin has had nothing but vodka for the past three days, alcohol his solution to everything.
Dark eyes burned with tears that welled and threatened to spill down his pale cheeks, swimming over the dark circles around his eyes. It was times like this, when the others were out with their own lovers, that Kangin truly felt alone and all the memories rushed back.
Kangin sat on the couch flipping through the tv guide litlessly before he was faced with a lapful of one heavenly creature named Eeteuk. Said angel curled his arms around the other mans neck, leaning in and placing a soft childish kiss on Kangin's nose.
The younger man's lips rose, cheekbones reaching his eyes and Kangin pulled Eeteuk close kissing him tenderly, ignoring his need for air. Eeteuk grinned pulling away to catch his breath before placing a small trail of kisses, all over Kangin's face and neck.
Kangin lifted the bottle again gulped the rest of the fowl liquid down as he slumped forward, sloppily spread out in the empty porcelain tub he had climbed into sometime during his reminiscing. He leaned forward and turned on the shower, letting the scalding hot water turn his pale flesh bright pink with blisters.
The heat left him unaffected, his eyes still refusing to let his tears fall. They were stubborn, just like every part of him. His fully clothed body was heavy with the weight of his wet jeans and sweatshirt, but he did not care. He could feel nothing.
Thousands of kisses were exchanged between the two, each different from the next. "What brought this on hyung?" Kangin gave a devilish smile as Eeteuk snuggled into his strong arms. "It's just because I love you."
"Of course you do! Who wouldn't?" Kangin flexed his arm a bit striking a small pose. The band leader giggled and rolled his eyes at the other's vainity. "Here I am trying to make this a cute moment and you go and act like that, Aish Kangin you really are a child." Eeteuk scolded him, his voice light and teasing.
"Oh but hyung, aren't you the child? Being as ticklish as you are!" And with those words, Kangin attacked mercilessly tickling the older boy into submission. Kangin grinned, smile growing wider with every chuckle and squeal that came from his only love.
"K-k-kang-in! S-Stop!" Eeteuk couldn't controll his laughter and rolled around in the younger's lap trying to avoid the man's fingers. Kangin stopped and looked down at the older man, eyes full of compassion and he lent down to gently kiss Eeteuks forehead and chin. He let his lips wander towards the others as they shared a moment or perpetual bliss. Words were not needed. This was love.
Reaching into his pocket he took out a small bottle of pills. Dumping the last of them into his hand, he swallowed the fist full ignoring the slight suffocating feeling he got from them all going down at once. This was his last option, there was nothing on earth that could make him stay, because his beloved wasn't on this earth anymore.
"Kangin... there's been an accident." "On his way home from the groccery store, there was this drunk driver." "He ran a red light." "Eeteuk was crossing the intersection." "It was instant..." "I'm so sorry...." "Hyung..." "Kangin-ah..." "It is a sad day for Super Junior, as beloved leader Leeteuk was hit by a drunk driver, crossing an intersection on his way home form the groccery store..."
Cute and adorable 'Angel Teukie', the 'Umma with an iron fist', the leader of Super Junior. Gone. All gone. An accident, they say, nothing more than an accident. But that's not what mattered. What matters is that he was gone, the only good in Kangin's life, gone like a summer breeze.
Kangin pulled out a razor, he had swiped it from the kitchen counter where it lay out to be used for opening mail and boxes. Rolling up his sleeves he revealed several large scabbing cuts across his arms.
They twisted in some sick sadistc spider web of depression, roping along from his forearms to his wrists. His master piece was complete, there was only one thing left to do. Kangin lifted to razor to his left wrist, the sharp steel metal chilling the blistered and scared skin as he applied pressure.
He watched fascinated, as if in a trance, as the blood bubbled up before appearing suddenly swiping across his wrist. And the blood poured a never ending supply, and all Kangin did was do the same to his right wrist.
All he wants is his angel, his Teukie, and this is the only way to get to him. His mind goes hazy and his vission blurs, he hears worried pounding but it all seems to far away. Suddenly everything is gone and he is floating, floating into a dark abyss of nothingness.
Then a light appears, a beam of blinding white hot light that causes something to curl, tight in his stomach. 'Is this heaven...?" He can only question until he appears. There, floating there is the one he's longed for, the one he's cried over. His heart and soul and mind. There before him is his beautiful Eeteuk, floating towards him a solemn smile gracing his angelic face.
"Eeteuk..." he breaths out shakily. Reaching for him, his eyes quickly hold confusion as the other boy pulls from him, just out of his grasp.
"Eeteuk...?" "Kangin..." Eeteuks voice is sad and regretful, tears well in his eyes. "Kangin-ah.... People who kill themselves... are not allowed in heaven.... Oh Kangin!" Eeteuk is sobbing now, a golden halo and feathered wings are visable and Kangin can only gape in awe at the beauty of his lover. The words don't register.
And then he's falling, he's freefalling to hell, even farther from his angel then before...