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just because it's 5:08 AM and because it's the second time around, this stupid cartoon on tv reminds me of laying in my queen sized bed in florida in the most empty bedroom ever with basic curtains and the most desolate feeling and my satin black comforter such stupid pillows they didn't even match but my bed was in my corner where it felt more safe but i'd watch this show while i'd be on the phone with you until we had to go to sleep and then hang up and i'd watch it some more and finally doze off, i really wasted too many commodious days back then, it's the weirdest thing to think about how your brain shuts off certain memories and the ones you hold on to and think about the most seem to get less and less valuable,i am going through one of the most traumatic times of my life, my home is no longer existent and the only thing that's still there is the only thing i know how to feel but i wish i wasn't the only one